Scout update.

Scout Zaria arrived on 8/2/2012 at 1124 am.
She weighed 6 lbs 8 oz. And was 18 inches long.

I want to take the time to write her labor story but its been a really hard road. I am not doing well. And to be honest i need prayers. My bp has taken a turn for the worse and my kidneys are paying for it right now. I fought so long and hard to make it through her delievery that now that i made it....weeks later and i am not "making it". We have had a horrible time of it. I woke up yesterday morning with a horrible headache and pressure in my head. I wasn't feeling right and called my ob right away. I was fit in due to the severity of my issues. One the way to the appt our car broke down. We are not rich people by no means and since right now I am not working we have no means to fix it. Iw as upset because I really didn't want to miss my appt since I knew something was wrong. I was right....when i got there my bp was crazy. they were trying to admit me right then and there. I am under close watch right now and have to go back in a few days to check my bp again. If its not better i will be admitted no matter what.

I am scared. I am supposed to be feeling better since having her. And instead i still can't walk right. I can barely hold her and I just feel awful. I am not ready to die. I am not ready to leave my girls. And because of my health I can't work to help my family.Our car is broken down and we are unable to pay rent due to the fact we were not ready to have Scout yet. Our utilities are outrageous and we are running out of food. And they want me not to stress. Hard to believe when your world is crumbling around you and you can't do anything about it.

We need a miracle to save our family...and me. I need my health back so i can help my family. I need my husband to have strength and to stay healthy himself as I am worried about the burden that is on him as well. I am blessed that Scout is healthy and doing well. And I in no way regret having her..just wish we could enjoy this time instead of struggling. I am scared and tired.

I'm praying for you.

everythings is going to be fine hun your a very strong women i have been reading your story this is just a minor bump in the road.

Do you think you might apply for Food stamps? or family that can help with food? Pawning things and cutting unnecessary utilities might help. I pray for your health.

Praying for you!

Prayers to you and your family sweetheart. ;)

Awe Momma, I'm sorry to hear how your feeling. You need to rest and try not to stress so you will get better. Things always seem to get worse before they get better. Could family maybe step in and help a little till you are back on your feet again. Keep fighting as you have been sweetie . You are so very strong ! Look how far you've come so far!!!
hugs... praying for you and your family!

Im glad you updated.

Although all good suggestions, now is just not the time to worry yourself over food stamps or bills.
I know how worried you are for your husband, and how hes going to handle all this. But you need to be selfish right now. You can only think of you. You know yourself that even if you had all the money in the world, you would still find something to stress about.
You are not healthy mama. You can not do the things you want to do. The only way things can get better is if you get better. You have got to stay calm.


If there is anything I can do, call churches for you, whatever you need, please let me know okay.

Please try to stop and just focus on getting healthy.

Last night was a hard night. i didn't sleep much because i feared i wouldn't wake up. Today is my first day with just Scout and i for most of the day. I did wake up with my back feeling a lil better and was able to stand without the shaking. So that's good. I do keep losing my breathe but I am praying that my meds kick in in the next few days and I am on the road to at least getting back on track.

We had a friend of my daughters who heard we were in need of some help who I have never talked to but in passing call and say he has a mechanic to look at our SUv for free today. I asked him if I could make payments and he told me not to worry about it. Also my nurse who has seen me through my entire pregnancy called and knows Dave is struggling to keep upbetween work and taking care of both me and Scout. She offered to give him a break on the weeknds if he needs some time to relax and maybe just take a nap. My doctor and her have become more like family rather than just a Doctor and I am blessed to have them in my life. I tried for food stamps....which I hated to do only because we do make enough money but with me not able to work that has changed. We still "make too much" sigh. Sadly they don't realize that medical bills and bills in general eat up most of anyones pay check. utilities is still an issue. our bil was ridiculous last month due to the 100+ weather. Thank goodness its been in the 80s here and we have been able to chill on the AC use. Our landlord is amazing as well. she is letting us pay only half a month this month after my husband called her and explained what was going on. The caring and love that we have had this morning gives me some hope we will make it. I just pray it all works out and we are able to recover from this....and this time next year it will be a distant thought.

I am just trying to breathe. My meds are going to do their job. I am going to get better and I am going to be able to be the mother I want to be. I have to believe in that. Scout deserves that....and frankly so do i.

This too shall pass. And thank you all for support. I sometimes feel like Debbie downer venting on here. But for the first time in two weeks at least I can vent alittle.

breathe

Quoting Jennifer Hudak:" Last night was a hard night. i didn't sleep much because i feared i wouldn't wake up. Today is my first ... [snip!] ... I sometimes feel like Debbie downer venting on here. But for the first time in two weeks at least I can vent alittle. breathe"

Everyone needs to vent sometimes....dont feel like Debbie downer. I am so glad some people have offered some help! I believe things will get better for you and your family.  

Praying for you and your family.

you're inspirational. i feel so selfish venting about any of my "problems." stay strong, praying for you!

i'm glad to hear things are looking up a little today . i can't pretend to imagine what you must be going through but i'm continueing to think and pray for you , your health , strength for your husband and children & that your family will be provided for . you guys are all so strong & i believe you can make it through and have an amazing story when you look back at all of this . praying for your health to return . you're such an inspiration to many ! keep fighting

I am glad that you have a support system that is willing to help. I pray for your health. Don't worry about the bills. If you husband can call and let them know the situation and get on payments. Stay positive!