Quoting Kimber-Lily:" I got an abortion done June 2nd 2011. And it still hurts emotionally, I thought about it when the due ... [snip!] ... to be home in an hour. I'm such a mess. FML FML FML. I am so incredibly sorry and I don't think I can ever forgive myself."
it may not be much comfort to you because i'm sure others will say it and you won't believe it, but....
it gets better.
i know. from experience. same thing happened to me 2 years ago , and at first i was oddly okay with it all. then, one day at work a week or so later, i just started bawling in the freezer. then, i started thinking about what color eyes it would have had and who it would have looked like, etc.... i still get sad around the due date and the date i had it done. idk.... but it's gotten better. i don't cry as much, but i still cry. i still wonder. i still feel bad. i'm pregnant again now, and i'm worried i'm going to be sad in the coming months.
but i have to remember why i made the choice i did when i did. and i have to remember that i can't take it back.
idk if this helps. but i hope so. if you need anything, you can PM me. i'm about to go out now, but i will be back later and kidless. so, if you need to talk, i'll be here. i hope you find your peace.