Quoting Squid Kid:" I completely understand. Would you be able to be guilt free after you've already seen the fetus on ... [snip!] ... with a counselor asap so you can try getting your thoughts layed out as quickly as possible if you need to do this early."
I dont know if i can live with the guilt. but V is my number 1. if this one was already born i would of course make it my number 1 right up there with her, but since the situation changed so quickly and for the worse, i cant take away the things i will barely be able to provide for V for this baby, and then make them both suffer because i cant provide all they both need. i could do it with V. but i know how much babys cost, and i know how much work they will take. being single iwth no job and living with my ex until i can get a job isnt exactly what i want to put 2 kids through its not even fair V has to go through it, she deserves the world.
idk. like i said i love this baby already, but because its not physically here, i love V more. if this baby was already born i know my love would be equal of course. but i have the option to make things better for V and myself, or me struggle to make things worse for baby, V, and me.
im not sure if my reasons make sense. and idk if its something i will go through with, but i am definitely looking out more so for V than anything and anyone else right now. :/