So I guess I'm getting a little frustrated. I was hoping to find some support from ladies that felt similarly to me, but no dice. I knew from the time I first found out I was pregnant that I didn't want this baby. At all.
The time was not right. I was severely sick, physically and mentally, suffering from a controlling and abusive boyfriend trying to force me to keep it for religious reasons I didn't agree with, calling me names and manipulating me into waiting longer then I wanted for the abortion. I was unemployed and had to drop out of school to be able to pay for this. I was depressed everyday, thinking about my life with this child. I cried all the time. I was miserable and I thought my life was over.
As soon as I finally got the courage to make the appointment it was like the black cloud was lifted from my life. I saw hope again. I saw a future. I realized I didn't have to stay with someone that treated me horribly and would fight me for custody every step of the way. I could breathe again knowing that I was secure in my decision, and that whatever future children I may have would have a loving father and a mother that could actually support them without having to rely on the government. A mother that could be proud of her independence and success, a mother that truly wanted their child.
But now was not the time. It just was not right. And I don't have any regrets about the situation, nor do I feel any sadness. Perhaps it's because I don't believe in a higher power. I don't feel judged or guilty, I had only overwhelming support in my decision from my family. Who knows. But I know that the only person that could make the right choice was myself.
I feel like I just read my own story. I had my abortion 7.5 weeks ago and was 9 weeks along. I waited too long for the wrong reasons and finally feel like I have a future again. I am sorry you had to go through that but I'm glad you seem at peace with your decision. *hugs*
Quoting The Doctor:" I absolutely applaud and appreciate you thinking it through, and finding the best option for you. You ... [snip!] ... are many ladies who knew that abortion was the right choice for them, and know that they do not have to feel guilty. <3"
my hat goes off to you. I unfortunately had to make that same decision 3 months ago and I dont regret it at all.. May 18th will always be a day I will remember because that was one of the most hardest decisions ive had to make ever.
it takes a very brave women to recognize all that is needed in making such a hard decision. I wish you peace and health. ( mental and physical). When the time is right u will have a family that u can treasure....