My pregnancy story (it gets better.)
posted 8th Aug '12
My name is Patience, and I just turned 18. 7 months ago, (February 29th to be exact) I took a pregnancy test, and it was positive. Honestly, at first, I thought maybe it was just a fluke. Maybe it was my hormones. I made the decision right away to get an abortion. My mom was NOT okay with this. She kicked me out that night. My boyfriend told me he would support any decision I made. We got the money and made an appointment about a week from then. I was only 5 weeks along when I went to the clinic. My mom had to sign for me since I was under 18, and she just kept trying to make me feel bad. But honestly, I didn't. She kept telling me I am supposed to be upset and sad. That she would take the baby.. (My mom is addicted to pills, no way am I giving her another child to smurf up.) My boyfriend and I were broke. Had no jobs, no car. Dylan (boyfriend) was still in school, and I just knew it would be best if we didn't have the baby. But when I got to the clinic, and they called me back, I just burst into tears. Dylan wasn't allowed to be there with me, and I just felt awkward, and exposed, and very alone. They were mean, and ddin't make me feel better when I started crying. They just told me I would upset everyone else. So I walked out. We decided we would go back when I wasn't so scared. So we waited, and waited. Then I hit 12 weeks. I considered adoption. I talked to Dylan about keeping it, but he wasn't okay with either of those. But my mind was made up. There was no way I could go through with an abortion.
I ended up going to a doctor to get an ultrasound and find out how far along I was. When I saw the ultrasound, I knew we were keeping it. I showed Dylan the picture and he agreed. We couldn't get rid of her. No abortion, no adoption. So the next day Dylan dropped out and got his GED, and got a job a few weeks later. I'm now 28 weeks pregnant, and we found out we are having a girl. We have for the most part, gotten our lives together. Things seem to be working out.
I just made this post to explain to people that even if you feel hopeless, and you don't think you can do it, it gets better. I support free choice, so this isn't bashing people who choose abortion. But for the people who do want to keep their babies, it will get easier over time. I cried every night when I found out I was pregnant. I wanted to kill myself. I wanted to run away. Sometimes I still get upset because it gets really hard, but somehow, Dylan and I are going to make this work.
quotesmurfs?posted 8th Aug '12
With my first I was 17, the baby daddy broke up with me before we found out but didn't want to get back together once we did find out. We had an emergency ultrasound at 3 months so he thought it was cool to miss the next ultrasound. Adoption and abortion were not an option for me. My parents would have taken him. I felt the same way sometimes. I even wanted to sign my rights away. But I'm so glad I kept him. It's not going to be easy raising a baby I promise. It's (excuse the language) smurfing hard sometimes. But good for you to had good luck!! There will be easy days so don't worry!! Just hold your head up and keep in mind that it is all worth it!! Congrats!!!!
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