Quoting Guilty and undeserving:" Guilt is eating me up. I have had a problem with meth and had done decent for a while. However, I have ... [snip!] ... feel like a monster. I even had to reschedule my OB appointment I had this morning for next week because I was to high to go."
If I was you I would go to my OB or GP or whatever and tell them that I have a problem. Doing meth is so bad for your poor baby
And if you can't stop on your own you need someone who will help you.
Get help! Seriously, before you really hurt your baby.
Best of luck!