worst birthday ever

I miscarried in June and still depressed over it. Today is my birthday so I was deciding to get out and enjoy the day and then on my way out s get a call that my sister just gave birth to my nephew and that threw me into a depressed mood again I was hoping too get out and not stay home and mope but instead i'm on my way to the hospital to see a baby knowing I will never be able to see mine. I hope I can pretend to be happy I don't want.to cry having many different emotions right now and don't know.what to do worst birthday ever.

I'm so sorry. I know your pain. I wish I could say something to make you feel better, but I know that's not possible. The pain will never go away, but it will get easier to cope with. I've had 3 miscarriages in the past year and a half, and it still hurts when someone I know announces they're pregnant. It's like a punch in the gut. I wish you the best, mama. Hugs.