Is it strange of me ... (religious question)

... to miss being a Christian sometimes? Maybe not Christian per se because I was never truly a proper Christian ... but I miss the sense of community that came with being part of an organized religion, and I miss having that sense of connection to a God. Now I know that I can't go back and I can't change who I am to suit ... but yeah sometimes I do think I'm missing something.
I am who I am that's it. I'm bisexual, I'm the dominant in a relationship, I'm pro-choice, anti-circ, an advocate for gay marriage and rights, write gay romance as a hobby, and I'm studying medical research at school with a hope of moving into stem cell research ... and this is all who I am and I'm not willing to change who I am at a fundamental level to 'fit in'. I was told at 17 that I wasn't a proper Christian and that I was going to Hell, by my Pastor and so since then I've just shrugged it all off.
I'm not saying that I want back in, because if the only way in is to not be me then what's the point? I'm just saying that sometimes ... just sometimes ... I feel it.

Like you said in your post, I think you lack a sense of community. Religion Schmeligion...
If you want to have a relationship with god, you sure as heck don't need a a church to facilitate that!

Hope you find peace and get some good advice on here  

There are Christians out there who feel the same way you do. Try starting your own fellowship. Thats what a lot of people around here do because they cannot bring themselves to go to a church and face the judgment

Quoting wendybird:" Like you said in your post, I think you lack a sense of community. Religion Schmeligion... If you want ... [snip!] ... with god, you sure as heck don't need a a church to facilitate that! Hope you find peace and get some good advice on here  "

that's what I think to ... I went from organized religion to unorganized religion and I think its wildly different. Don't get me wrong I love my new found sense of closeness and belonging to the Earth and everything upon it ... I just wish I could have kept the good parts of Christianity as well. Unfortunately I have come to the conclusion I'm just not meant for it

Quoting ♡Sarah♡ + 2:" There are Christians out there who feel the same way you do. Try starting your own fellowship. Thats ... [snip!] ... Thats what a lot of people around here do because they cannot bring themselves to go to a church and face the judgment"

What do you mean by fellowship? Like another denomination? I honestly can't imagine there would be many ... if any ... other people like me in a little place like Perth.

Quoting Destiel:" ... to miss being a Christian sometimes? Maybe not Christian per se because I was never truly a proper ... [snip!] ... if the only way in is to not be me then what's the point? I'm just saying that sometimes ... just sometimes ... I feel it."

i do not believe in god, but i do like how in the states it seems like when you go to church the people within that church take care of each other and are always kind to each other. it makes me want to start going to church just to get this closeness with other people...
thats how it seems anyways. i cant tell too much, because the only time i went i was there with someone else to watch a child in the daycare room. but i do remember hearing them sing a lot and i know they had a big meal all together which seemed very nice.
but we are now in germany.
church is different here. you go, listen to what they have to say, sing, pray, go home.
i always hated church here...maybe it would have been different had i grown up in the states.

You never really lose your connection to God but it feels like you do only because you believe it. What you think and believe effects your reality. I am sure there are a lot of people who share your beliefs that you can commune with. If you wish to feel closer to God first let go of any guilt regarding your beliefs. They really don't matter. Also try relaxing mediation in private. Your connection to the creator is inner based and you don't need religion for that. I left the Christian religion years ago but I believe I have had much spiritual growth since then. Not because I left the religion but rather I feel I see things with more clariry now than I did years ago.

Quoting Lucid Dreamer:" You never really lose your connection to God but it feels like you do only because you believe it. What ... [snip!] ... growth since then. Not because I left the religion but rather I feel I see things with more clariry now than I did years ago."

I understand what you're trying to say ... I just don't understand why I should attempt a connection with a God who disapproves of who I am at a basic level. Maybe that's just me being petty and refusing to change ... but I don't see why I should have to. I am who I am

Quoting Destiel:" What do you mean by fellowship? Like another denomination? I honestly can't imagine there would be many ... if any ... other people like me in a little place like Perth."

No, not denomination just a group of people getting together to celebrate God and his word. Can be in a relaxed setting like a bbq, picnic, at your home or the park...something like that.

Quoting Destiel:" I understand what you're trying to say ... I just don't understand why I should attempt a connection ... [snip!] ... a basic level. Maybe that's just me being petty and refusing to change ... but I don't see why I should have to. I am who I am"

You don't have to change. Who you are right now is actually part of your spiritual journey. My concept of God is not all traditional at I believee God loves all as they are and you don't have to attempt a connection if you don't wish to. You believe God disapproves of who you are but I don't believe God looks at us like that. You are having your own unique experience like the rest of us and it is all a part of the ultimate plan.

Quoting ♡Sarah♡ + 2:" No, not denomination just a group of people getting together to celebrate God and his word. Can be in a relaxed setting like a bbq, picnic, at your home or the park...something like that."

I don't know ... I don't even know if I'm willing to give up my new beliefs.

It's not strange at all. And it's nobody's place to tell you where you are going after you die except for God. Just because a pastor told you that you are going to Hell doesn't mean that pastor knows better than God. It's not anybody's place to judge you or you life except for Him.

You are not the first person that I've heard say that you miss being apart of a group, having a sense of connection. You still can and you don't have to change, because that's the great thing about God. He accepts you as you are.

Quoting rowthatboat:" It's not strange at all. And it's nobody's place to tell you where you are going after you die except ... [snip!] ... connection. You still can and you don't have to change, because that's the great thing about God. He accepts you as you are. "

I don't somehow believe, not after reading the bible several times and talking to people not just on BG but other groups, that the Christian God is willing to accept me as I am

Quoting Destiel:" I don't somehow believe, not after reading the bible several times and talking to people not just on BG but other groups, that the Christian God is willing to accept me as I am"

That's because a lot of "Christians" have it all wrong. But that is your call to make, and if you came to that conclusion I respect that. Like I've said before, it is not may place to judge and I'm not one of those people who go around damning anyone to Hell for what they believe . There are a lot of different people in the world, who believe differently from me, and that's perfectly ok.

Quoting Destiel:" I don't somehow believe, not after reading the bible several times and talking to people not just on BG but other groups, that the Christian God is willing to accept me as I am"

I think the Christian God is all loving and all accepting.