im falling apart

I'm trying to keep myself together all I can do is cry right now I'm so angry hurt and alone I'm tired of feeling unappreciated I do everything for LO and I'm trying to keep myself together for him...I'm at my breaking point and I simply just want to disappear I love lo but I hate all the pain I'm going through in life and I hate myself for bringing him into an unstable environment he deserves a better family

I hope things get better for you, best of luck to you & your family as well.

<blockquote><b>Quoting  Amanda(::</b>" I hope things get better for you, best of luck to you & your family as well."</blockquote>




I hope so because idk how much longer I can keep living like this...

Quoting i love my son so much:" <blockquote><b>Quoting  Amanda(::</b>" I hope things get better for you, best of luck ... [snip!] ... to you & your family as well."</blockquote> I hope so because idk how much longer I can keep living like this..."

Things get really hard sometimes but all you can do is try to improve upon the situation & try to do whats best for your LO first & foremost. I'm going through a bit of a tough time myself, my unborn son is really all that keeps me sane through the stress & the depression

<blockquote><b>Quoting  Amanda(::</b>" Things get really hard sometimes but all you can do is try to improve upon the situation & try to ... [snip!] ... through a bit of a tough time myself, my unborn son is really all that keeps me sane through the stress & the depression"</blockquote>




Is it your first? I'm sorry to hear your having a tough time aswell when I was pregnant I suffered from depression and had a lot of stress its deff hard getting yourself in a nonstressful state when pregnant. My LO is the only reason why I haven't fully lost my mind his dad doesn't spend as much time with us as he should and right now we technically are homeless but I got past living in a shelter with a newborn by myself and he's my first and I deff had a hard time but I love bonding with him he's ny befriend

Quoting i love my son so much:" <blockquote><b>Quoting  Amanda(::</b>" Things get really hard sometimes but all you ... [snip!] ... in a shelter with a newborn by myself and he's my first and I deff had a hard time but I love bonding with him he's ny befriend"

Yep, this is my first baby, the first one that i've been able to carry past 10 weeks. I had a miscarriage a few weeks after finding out I was pregnant at 16 & i think that also has something to do with my depression now. I had depression problems before that though so i'm not sure. The only reason SO & I aren't homeless is because my mother opened her home to us(I didn't expect her to) & I'm so sorry your going through all of that. The father really should try & be part of the childs life more, it sucks that hes not. I want my son to be here so badly, I don't think i'd be near as upset half the time if he was. I've been so afraid of him having complications too(I'm guessing thats pretty normal with any pregnancy though)

<blockquote><b>Quoting  Amanda(::</b>" Yep, this is my first baby, the first one that i've been able to carry past 10 weeks. I had a miscarriage ... [snip!] ... time if he was. I've been so afraid of him having complications too(I'm guessing thats pretty normal with any pregnancy though)"</blockquote>

<blockquote><b>Quoting  Amanda(::</b>" Yep, this is my first baby, the first one that i've been able to carry past 10 weeks. I had a miscarriage ... [snip!] ... time if he was. I've been so afraid of him having complications too(I'm guessing thats pretty normal with any pregnancy though)"</blockquote>




That's great your family opened up their home to you guys I wish my family would've done that but I understand why the didn't...I'm sorry to hear about the miscarriage...it deff is normal to worry about the baby coming with complications I was the same up until I delivered and even now he's turning 11 months this Thursday and I'm always worry about any little thing when it comes to him I say your mommy senses are kicking in lol I'm sure everything will be fine ans if you ever get worried call your ob or midwives trust me they nay be annoyed but it gives you a sense of peace when they tell you not to worry! His dad was getting more involved and now last week he's gotten distant from us and that has me so pissed off aswell

Quoting i love my son so much:" <blockquote><b>Quoting  Amanda(::</b>" Yep, this is my first baby, the first one that ... [snip!] ... to worry! His dad was getting more involved and now last week he's gotten distant from us and that has me so pissed off aswell"

I don't blame you, i'd be pissed too! Congrats on your LO being almost a year old. My nephew just turned 1 & i'm almost 6 months pregnant, it kinda really hit me today & I cried because things happened so fast

<blockquote><b>Quoting  Amanda(::</b>" I don't blame you, i'd be pissed too! Congrats on your LO being almost a year old. My nephew just turned ... [snip!] ... just turned 1 & i'm almost 6 months pregnant, it kinda really hit me today & I cried because things happened so fast"</blockquote>




Thank you! Once the baby comes time is really going to fly! The first few weeks were the hardest so just take things as easy as possible once baby is here but to be honest I miss his newborn stage! Now he is so hyper and I'm always worn out lol what are you naming.your lo?

Quoting i love my son so much:" <blockquote><b>Quoting  Amanda(::</b>" I don't blame you, i'd be pissed too! Congrats ... [snip!] ... is here but to be honest I miss his newborn stage! Now he is so hyper and I'm always worn out lol what are you naming.your lo?"

I bet, & his name is going to be Ezekiel Matthew