life vent. advice needed?

I dont know why I am always tired. I literally could sleep all day! It started just a few months ago about 2 months after I had my son. I have no motivation at all or the urge to go out and do anything besides sit in the house all day. I feel like a horrible mom. One of the problems is my son will not sleep longer than ten minutes unless hes laying on me so ofcourse I just get tired from just laying there with him and fall asleep. In a way I think it could be because of my weight change after the new baby. I was used to being skinny and now I just feel so embarassed about my body that I absolutly hate going out in public. I dont even go to the grocery store anymore thats how bad everything has gotten. My daily schedule is I wake up with my son around 6 or 7am then 9am I wake dh up to wake up with the kids so I can nap. Then hell wake me up around 11 and if I dont go to my paps(which is the only place I really go anymore) then I have to lay on the couch with my son so he will nap. Then wake up feed my daughter lunch then around 5 my dh will leave to goto work and if im not napping with my son already I try and get him to lay down. 630 rolls around I feed the kids dinner then bath then bedtime at 830. Then I am up until after 2am bc I absolutly can not sleep at night unless my hubby is home. Normally goto bed at 3am. I want things to change but i dont know how to change them I have no motivation except I want to be supermom and be doing all kinds of fun things with my children its jst soo hard. I have no friends I could hang out with. I stay in sweats all day mostly bc I feel really uncomfortable in jeans. Last friday was my 21st birthday and I also got married that day. and I still didnt really even want to go out and do anything. Basically forced myself to for my dh. Even then around midnight I was ready to go back to the hotel and relax. Any advice on how to live a better life and make it more enjoyable and change the way I feel about myself and not sleeping all day. Also I am a stay at home mom. and getting a job really isnt a possibilty right now for childcare reasons but I dont even want to get a job bc of my weight. I have tried exercising and diet pills and changing my diet but cant seem to lose weight at all. Does anyone else feel this way or am I just lazy?

I understand alot of what your saying. I get the blues sometimes too...i'm over anxious..i'd love to go to the dr for it..but im scared to take medication anyway..i got these vitamins someone on here reccommended to me..Sam-e by Nature valley, they are suppose to help with your mood...and they've helped a little.
Now im sure things would be alot different if your son would sleep on his own..have you tried white noise? my son is 9 months old and i still use a white noise machine everynight for him. It helped alot in the beginning when he was colicky.
Hope you feel better soon... And dont worry you arent the only mom that doesnt go ou or hangout with anybody...I'm in Pjs all day as well. Its nice to get out sometimes...so try to, i dont get to unless its with my husband lol.

Yea he likes when the vaccum is on. Most of the time I have to hold him while the vaccum is on if he doesnt want to be in his swing. The diet pills I have taken first it was Oxy Elite pro and now its A.C.E. they have energy boosters in them but I dont get any energy from them. I have tried last yr a pill that was supposed to boost your mood but those didnt work. Sometimes I wonder if I am depressed but scared to goto the doctor about it. I just hate feeling like this. Its like its in control of my life not me

I just kind of skimmed through the post( sorry) but have you had your thyroid checked?

Quoting JessicaNjesse:" I just kind of skimmed through the post( sorry) but have you had your thyroid checked?"

They checked it when I was pregnant. About 3 months ago I asked my dr to put me on stronger diet pills and she wouldnt but she said if I couldnt lose weight that they would check it again. But I didnt tell her about sleeping all the time or anything. Just that I was having alot of trouble losing my baby weight. I went from being 115 to 190 and I am still at 190

i would def go back to the doctor..tell them your concerns...hopefully they can diagnose you, and figure out the problem.

Quoting Kayden & Nicholas's Mommy:" They checked it when I was pregnant. About 3 months ago I asked my dr to put me on stronger diet pills ... [snip!] ... or anything. Just that I was having alot of trouble losing my baby weight. I went from being 115 to 190 and I am still at 190"

Yeah i had a terrible time loosing my sons baby weight, and i was so tired all day long. One time i was so tired i slept for 14 hours straight, bevause DH couldnt get me to wake up. He got scared and made me go to the doctor. It turns out my thyroid was underactive. Before they put me on meds ,it was the most miserable time of my life. Ive been on the meds for almost a years now and i have lost about 50 pounds and i dont feel drained and tired anymore. Also after my second son i started feeling tired again, and i thought it was my throid acting up, but i had low iron( which is commen after having a baby). so i started eating more iro rich foods and taking vitamins and i feel like my old self again   good luck i hope you feel better

Thanks Everyone Im glad im not the only one that has went through this. I am going to make an apt tomorrow to get it checked. I could sleep all day and not even notice. When my dh does wake me up i dont want to get up but I know I have to.

Quoting Kayden & Nicholas's Mommy:" Thanks Everyone Im glad im not the only one that has went through this. I am going to make an apt tomorrow ... [snip!] ... it checked. I could sleep all day and not even notice. When my dh does wake me up i dont want to get up but I know I have to. "

Whatever you do, DONT think that you are lazy! I would explain to my DH that i was so tired and he kept just saying i was lazy. And no one believed me. From what you say it really sounds like you have a medical condition. hope everything goes well

my dh calls me lazy sometimes but he also understands that I cant help how I feel. he thinks it might be my gallbladder bc i had attacks when I was pregnant and was told if i had anymore after I had my son I would need it out. I havent had any attacks but I get alot of indigestion. Once again thanks everyone who commented and helped me realize that maybe it is something that I just cant help and need to seek medical advice for it.