Quoting JessicaNjesse:" Im sorry. i do understand though. Its been almost five years since i was raped and sometimes it dsoesnt ... [snip!] ... it. I dont understand it. If you want im on here alot and you can talk to me about it whenever you want. hope you feel better"
Thanks. Most of the time I don't really care either way. It's like it didn't actually happen. And when I've told the few people who know I actually have to force myself not to sound too casual about it. But when I'm alone it really tears me up. I have to literally force myself not to cry because I'm so afraid to let the emotions out. I don't want to not be able to bottle it up anymore if I let it out.