Quoting regina_margot:" agreed, sounds like a defining moment, and a turning point for you, OP. i'm very sorry about your loss. maybe this flicker of life ended, so that another, stronger one, can begin!"
I have felt this loss many times, and the most recent was last x-mas. My husband and I were sooo excited, it was to be our forth little one. However the day before my first OB appointment which was over 2 weeks later, I had lost the baby. My husband was devastated, as was I. It was a very blue x-mas season. But a few months passed, and we started trying again, tracking everything so that we could conceive again. And in April we did. We are expecting our 4th little one for x-mas this year.
I know how hard this is, but allow yourself to heal, and if you decide again, make sure that you are ready physically and emotionally first.