Depressed?

*No bashing please*
By the way, my daughter is now 13 months...
When I found out I was pregnant, I had friends to talk to, laugh with and hang out with. Although, only one of my friends came too see me and my baby at the hospital when she was born. But ever since I had my daughter, my "best friend" has only made time for me 2 times out of this whole year. Not one single person will text or call me besides my mother and husband. I have not gone one night or day without my daughter. (Which I'm more then okay with, because I don't trust anyone) And that may be my problem. Since she was born, I actually have only been without her for 4 hours one day that her uncle took her. And I was so paranoid the entire time. But what I'm getting at is, I get sooo stressed out, and if I'm alone like for instance when my husband is on night shift and Isabella is sleeping. I get so upset and just cry. Sometimes I don't even know why. My husband will tell me to go out with my friends and he will watch the baby. But what he doesn't get is... I have no friends. And I really actually do want to go out and just have fun, but if and when the time comes down to it. I don't want to leave my daughter. I have real bad separation anxiety. I don't know what my problem is.  

you need to remember you are YOU. not just mommy and wife. you have an identity and it is what makes you you. mommy and wife are just parts of who you are. losing you in those identities will lead to depression. slowly work your way into going out, and being away from your baby. it will be hard, but it will help you in the end. try an hour twice a week to go do something for yourself. go to the store by yourself, anything. start small and work your way up. go on a date with your hubby! something. you NEED you time.

its also VERY VERY VERY normal.

Quoting Miss Julie:" you need to remember you are YOU. not just mommy and wife. you have an identity and it is what makes ... [snip!] ... start small and work your way up. go on a date with your hubby! something. you NEED you time. its also VERY VERY VERY normal."

This.

I became very, very depressed at one point and thankfully I was able to get myself out of it.

You guys are right. But I can't bring myself to leave my daughter with anyone. Not even her grandparents. I feel like such a bad mother, when I put her off on someone else, I don't know why. My husband is always telling me to go out with my friends, but even the one girl who claims we're best friends and only talks to me 4 times a month, it's so awkward when we're talking or together because we went sooo long without talking and it's like we don't even know each other anymore and there's nothing to talk about. I'm not very much of a social butterfly. I would enjoy going out with my husband without the baby but then I would feel like I have to hurry home.

Quoting Bellabug's Mama:" You guys are right. But I can't bring myself to leave my daughter with anyone. Not even her grandparents. ... [snip!] ... a social butterfly. I would enjoy going out with my husband without the baby but then I would feel like I have to hurry home."

Maybe sign up to a class which involves other mothers to participate with LO---that way you can meet new people and have fun while being out with the kids.