nervous to be a first time mom...longg vent!!

so a little about me im 17 my boyfriend is 17 we were together for 5 months until we discovered i was 6 weeks pregnant. my birth control was recalled and thats basically how it happened i dont believe in abortions..im currently 22.3 weeks prego with a boy hes due in november and this pregnancy has been such a roller coaster of emotions for me, the first three months i was just throwing up all the time i was really sick. and that took a toll on our relationship with me not being as mentally stable i was always so independent but its hard to be when i cant work cause the sickness. but i just keep chugging along its hard when you dont have any friends who really understand. cause everyone my age is more into partying. i want to give this baby the best life i can give him and im doing anything possible for that. i dont believe in when times get tough just give up even tho its so hard. my boyfriend is amazing and helps me through this as much as he can he is working and providing for both of us. wich i respect more then anything and thats how a relationship should be. im just scared that since i had to move out of my parents house and into his house (wich is a farrrr move away from my family and far from civilization) im so scared my baby isnt going to be able to see my side of the family often.. i dont think its fair for me because we had a perfect oppurtunity to stay at my house with a room for baby and no other siblings around. until my boyfriend and mom started butting heads. and then he just didnt want to come around my house anymore. and i dont love being away from my house at all it was a hard thing for me to do being pregnany and away from my family. as no one is ever at my boyfriends house until 8 at night. it gets depressing and another thing i dont like is my boyfriends brother is dating my boyfriends most recent ex girlfiriend. and im not one to hate someone but with her its hard not too. i tried being nice and talking to her but she lied to me about some things that happened between them just so i would get pissed and go figure it started a huge argument between me and my boyfriend and as i look back the night of our argument i thought i started my period but it was the implantation bleeding and i didnt think much of it til a couple weeks later but i try to keep my distance from her. its so hard tho cause she thinks its ok to just hang around still. and i hope she doesnt get the nerve to even try and hold my baby plus its awkward being around her i cant even look at her but she just stares at me. and she even tried to touch my belly and i was like nooo.... i want nothing to do with her!!! but other then that his brother is 9 months younger then him and has his friends around all the time too and when his brother is with his friends he is a dick to me. and says things like oh watch your baby come out with all these deformed parts and everyone laughs and thinks its funny..i dont think its funny at all. my baby is the only thing making me happy and for someone to talk that way about something i care so much about makes me want to go crazy and its hard not to, also when my boyfriend hangs around his brother and his brothers friends i just dont think it makes him more mature its just stupid and not fair for me. cause im trying to be a family and grow up but i cant when i have his little brother making fun of my baby and being rude. i got so fed up with it i actually went off on his brother in front of his stupid girlfriend and they all just stared at me like i was crazy. im just tired of that already. its hard enough being away from my own family and not knowing how things are gonna turn out when the baby is here im just even more scared being at my boyfriends house with my baby..i dont think its making my boyfriend grow up at all plus closest convienience store is 7 miles away.. 14 mile round trip and im here alone all day long everyone works 20 or more miles away and we might not be able to keep my car.. i dont know if i can handle this...he thinks everything is okay but its hard on me. i just feel SOOO alone all the time. and so unwanted. and just tired of getting talked to like my baby is going to be a retard or a bad kid or he is going to be gay or he is going to have multiple arms makes me want to scream at him smurfing GROW UP!!!!!!!!! its not funny and i told my boyfriend to say hi to the baby and talk to him and he just said he isnt even here yet. but i think he just said that cause he was in front of his brother wich pisses me off cause my boyfriend talks to the baby all the time not in front of people. and makes me feel better when he talks to my belly. just idk anymore. im already tired of not being in my own house. im tired of his brother, scared of his brother having a effect on how my boyfriend wants to be/ how his parenting is. cause its not a joke. and tired of being so far from my family and my friends..sorry for this being so long i just need support/ friends/ love/ and given hope that everything will be okay. cause as of right now i feel so bad like i broke my moms heart for moving out. and i dont know if i should of moved out. i just did it because it makes my boyfriend happy and my mom and i were going through a little drama at the time. but now im scared i made the wrong decision and my boyfriend just says its the right decision cause he and her dont get along so i cant even talk to him about this but i feel so bad i just cry all the time and cant even sleep. im miserable.

If you're that miserable and cant stand being around your bf's brother, then you should move back in with your mom! you shouldnt have to deal with that and im sure you dont want you're baby to deal with that, i sure wouldnt! you have to do whats best for you and your baby! your mom and your bf will just have to deal with each other and get over their differences! thats what i told my bf. i want all of our family members involved and if they are making the effort, then he needs to as well. It sounds like it might be better if you moved back in with your mom and i honestly think you should consider it. It doesnt seem like its a very good thing for you to stay there and get all the harrasment! and your bf isnt helping by joining in when his brother does it. You should talk to your mom and see about moving back in, whether your bf likes it or not. you have to think about your baby, he seems to not be doing that. You need to talk to her and discuss what she thinks you should do and talk about the possibility of moving back in with her. if it were me i'd be out of there and back home within in a day or two!

honestly i would just move back to your moms. it will make you a lot happier and you dont need all the stress of his brother, the friends, and expectially the girlfriend. just sit your boyfriend down and talk to him tell him everything you are feeling and dont let him talk till your done. i can kind of relate to this. but i was with my babys dad for about 3 months and found out i was 4 weeks pregnant. at first i thought everything would work we would have the baby live with us at his parents house but as i got farther along about 8-9 weeks pregnant i decided i wanted to move back home my babys dad was mad and seriously cried cause of it. my parents gave me the option of having him move in with me. but at that point he was very clingy. i couldnt go to a friends house without him texting or calling me a million times just to ask what we were doing and it was annoying and i didnt want to really be with him anymore. he was a very big mommys boy and it wasnt a good thing what so ever. it was way over bearing. but anyways i moved back to my dads and i decided that i was just going to end things with him it was better off just not being with him. just the sight of him or seeing him text me drove me crazy. now im 35.5 weeks pregnant and i have bought everything he dont understand where i come from with anything and its gotten to the point were he is not going on the birth certificate cause he hasnt proved to me that he should be on there. his whole family goes in to my job and talks crap about me and the stuff they say isnt even true. but the moral of the story is that you dont need him. i am way better off. and if he cant just get along with your mom for your sake and the babys sake then thats his loss. he shouldnt let anyone talk to you the way his brother is and if he really cared then he would tell them to quit. but i would just go back to your moms house. she will always take you in with open arms. dont let people stress you out cause it is deff not good for the baby. or for you. dont let the walk all over you. if you miss your family just go back. you still have a while before the baby comes so its not like you need to live with your boyfriend right now for the baby.

well you guys are right. there is just so much to everything cause when i am at my moms house she just started arguing with me out of no where but then when im over here at my bf's its just like i miss it at my moms and i just hate being this far away. im just gonna bust my ass and probably try to get an apartment cause him being at his mom and dads house isnt helping him grow up and me being over here just sucks cause i cant really do anything being so far from everything and i try to help and do dishes but im not going to do them if his brothers friends come over and then there is a smurf ton for me to do especially because i was doing them and got made fun of cause my belly hit the counter..just sucks also cause i want to be able to nest but i just cant and then i just give upp cause its not my house i dont know where everything is and i am too respectful to just go through the house and find what i need. and being with him is what i want. everyone has mountains to climb and this one is ours. and we made this baby together there is no reason why we cant raise him together

The only thing about getting your own place is you have to make sureyou have enough saved up for when you go on leave you have money to still live on. But I kno how you feel about the nesting I live with my parents and I just have my room and bathroom to keep clean and its really not that time consuming. Have you talked to his parents about how they are treating you?