express your self

i dont know about any one els but when i lost my children i felt lost and didnt know were to turn or what to do, so i started keeping random notes for how i felt and different ways i could express my self in a safe way. i have now started to do this reguly and have called it my purple book.

well i just want to give every one the option to have a "purple book" we can share with each othere and share our feeling in what ever way you wish to expresss them. i hope this can be usefull to people.

feel free to post any thing that you like x x x x

So quickly you came into our lives,
So quickly torn away.
Never got the chance to meet you,
There's so much I want to say.
Where there once was joy and happiness,
Is now sadness, guilt, and pain.
All these thoughts running through my head,
It's enough to drive me insane.
Though you lived only a short time,
You were loved so very much.
I wish that I could hold you,
I long to feel your touch.
But on that dreadfull night,
My world was ripped from under my feet.
I pray that in another life,
We get the chance to meet.

I’ve never cried so much in my whole life. I am walking around with this empty feeling where I should be holding my baby. I had just found out I was pregnant and then it was suddenly all over. I keep on thinking it’s a punishment. I must have done something wrong. I must have been a bad person. Or this wouldn’t happen to me.

I had just found out I was pregnant and then it was suddenly all over.

I am in complete shock.

I am in so much pain yet still feel numb.
Soo many questions i can not answer -
Why me?

How did this happen?

What did I do?