Quoting TamaraL:" Thanks for the birthday wishes. We don't know of any learning issues yet, so far everything has been ... [snip!] ... we are NEVER supposed to actually see our babies like that."
that is absolutely right.
not only that, but there is even research lately that suggests preemies are best left as much alone as possible during their early NICU days.
as in, they shouldn't be touched, it should be as dark and as quiet as possible.
in other words, you might consider not spending your whole days at the NICU. there will be plenty of time to bond and cuddle later.
when my girls were in NICU, one of the neonatologists told me something that stuck with me: babies need 9 months in the womb, and the NICU simply fills in those missing months using artificial wombs.
your baby is in good hands.
try to relax, and if the anxiety gets really bad, there are very effective medications.
i used small dosages of xanax when I needed to, which was late at night. it helped me relax and sleep.
your baby is in good hands. take care of yourself, get ready at home, cause she'll be home before you know it!
and tamara, your girlie is super cute, i watched the youtube videos: wonderful!