Quoting Batman ♥:" I was pathetic and weak for allowing someone to influence me enough to do something I knew in my heart I didn't want to do."
this is heartbreaking.
I dont want to sound like i am making excuses for you, but i know what its like to not know what to do, then be pressured into a decision you know you will regret. I was pregnant when i was 18, found out a month after BD and i broke up. didnt have a person in the world aside from my best friend, who was not strong enough to face this situation with me. It really is tough, and i dont blame him either. i was so scared and alone i never hated myself or my life more. my parents said if i was pregnant (i didnt tell them but my mom didnt see pads in the trash for over amonth) that they were in no way helping and i would have to quit school and find some way to support myself and the child.
i didnt abort, technically-but got into somethings that caused a miscarriage.
i hated myself for years after that. years.
i remember coming to my due date and thinking-i would be a mom now.
a mom. my emotions got the best of me, i started actually considering myself pro life because how much this hurt me. it took a long time to get over.
it isnt the same situation, im sure. but being pressured into doing something that you are not mentally capable of doing, its horrible on the other persons part. like why cant they just connect with you and see that the problem doesnt just "go away"
rick wanted me to abort when i got pregnant with logan. i couldnt....keeping him was selfish, i see now-because of our situation. but i know i would not have been able to abort.
then a few months ago i got pregnant again, and this time i was strong enough to face it, and i decided it was best for the family that i abort. it took a long time to get over hurting from the first loss, to be in a place where i could make a decision like that. i hope you can find the same strength and peace i have with what has happened.
i dont know if my story helps at all, maybe it makes it wose idk.