After heading to the hospital for cramping and dizziness I was in labor and delivery during work hours to get checked, no biggie. They usually do this with high risk after 20 weeks.
My daughter was at daycare so it was okay. Then I started thinking how some high risk pregnancies end up with bedrest or worse hospital bedrest. What the hell would I do?
I am all my daughter has, her father is in another state and has no interest in being there for her. I live alone and the thought of something happening to me terrifies me, for her sake. As silly as it sounds I take my phone in the bathroom when I shower just incase. I have friends and family here but for starters my family is not to involved (except for mother she lives out of town). I know I need to find someone to take care for my daughter when I go have the twins. I will be having a csec so that will all be schedules and planned but stuff I know doesnt always go as planned.
I am maybe putting too much thought into this but when I tell myself that I am all she has it freaking hurts.
I wish so bad her father cared for her and the twins, that he realized how hard this is.
Random thoughts, i guess!
I bum myself out, just when I think I have this single mommy stuff down. Preggo emotions don't help one bit, Im so over being preggo.
Friends would be my best choice and I would feel the most comfortable leaving her there. I just hope I have a smooth pregnancy and don't have to deal with any sort of bedrest. I don't want to have to leave her some where for long periods of time.
I probably am putting too much htought into this but Im just nervous of doing this alone.