Baby blues after an abortion.

I got my abortion around 6 weeks ago ( I was 9 weeks 0 days) and just feel like I really want to be pregnant. I am so conflicted because I was raped and became pregnant. I could be 15 weeks right now. I get very depressed and really want to have another baby in the next year or two when the time is right but I also feel bad about that. Why should I plan a baby when I chose to kill one? I just feel horrible, and all of these feelings that go against eachother in my head in constant conflict make me feel like I'm slowly losing my sanity.

I'm sure that is a normal reaction. I have never had an abortion but those feelings you have aren't bad or horrible   You want a baby, you just want one that was created out of love  

See a grief counselor.

Quoting Legendary BAMF:" I'm sure that is a normal reaction. I have never had an abortion but those feelings you have aren't bad or horrible   You want a baby, you just want one that was created out of love   "

Yeah, I think so. I just feel bad because no matter how it got there it was my baby. I was really indecisive and tried to be excited about the pregnancy and nobody knows I was raped.

Quoting La Reggaetonista:" Yeah, I think so. I just feel bad because no matter how it got there it was my baby. I was really indecisive and tried to be excited about the pregnancy and nobody knows I was raped."

If I am raped & fall pregnant, I'm sure I will get an abortion. Maybe adoption but I can't imagine how hard that is. Don't beat yourself up, at least you were only 6 wks along, right ? You did what you felt was right.

Quoting Legendary BAMF:" If I am raped & fall pregnant, I'm sure I will get an abortion. Maybe adoption but I can't imagine ... [snip!] ... imagine how hard that is. Don't beat yourself up, at least you were only 6 wks along, right ? You did what you felt was right."

No. I was 9 weeks. Due 3 days after my 21st birthday. I had seen so many ultrasounds. Quit smoking. Taking vitamins. Taking it easy. Ugh. I woke up one day and called Planned Parenthood and they did it that day.

im sorry sweetie thats a hard decision you had to make.if your planning on keeping the next baby i see no reason why you shouldnt get pregnant. you didnt ask to be raped. im very pro life and i believe in adoption but the past is the past you have to let it go. i would get some councling if i were you.

Quoting La Reggaetonista:" No. I was 9 weeks. Due 3 days after my 21st birthday. I had seen so many ultrasounds. Quit smoking. Taking ... [snip!] ... Quit smoking. Taking vitamins. Taking it easy. Ugh. I woke up one day and called Planned Parenthood and they did it that day."

oh, it says in your OP you got it at 6 wks ? Do you think you really regret it ?

Quoting *karlees mommy*:" im sorry sweetie thats a hard decision you had to make.if your planning on keeping the next baby i see ... [snip!] ... pro life and i believe in adoption but the past is the past you have to let it go. i would get some councling if i were you."

I am pro life too. Super pro life. I went against my morals and beliefs through that abortion and I feel like that's making it even harder. I feel I made a selfish decision. I was just trying to keep the baby safe.

Quoting Legendary BAMF:" oh, it says in your OP you got it at 6 wks ? Do you think you really regret it ? "

No it says 6 weeks AGO. I was 9 weeks pregnant. And no I don't regret it because my life has done a 360 since then. I'm doing so well and I am so happy with my kids I already have and am 100 percent able to be here for them. I'm just sad.

Quoting Legendary BAMF:" I'm sure that is a normal reaction. I have never had an abortion but those feelings you have aren't bad or horrible   You want a baby, you just want one that was created out of love   "

This.

Quoting La Reggaetonista:" I am pro life too. Super pro life. I went against my morals and beliefs through that abortion and I feel ... [snip!] ... and I feel like that's making it even harder. I feel I made a selfish decision. I was just trying to keep the baby safe."

Maybe this will help you realize that sometimes abortions are very necessary/helpful for some people? There are people that 'abuse' abortion in a sense yes, but I think the majority of abortions that occur are situations just like yours, OP. Maybe it was 'selfish' but I don't think putting yourself first is a bad thing most of the time. Maybe if you talk to somebody it will help you w/ what you're feeling. Good luck!

Quoting La Reggaetonista:" No it says 6 weeks AGO. I was 9 weeks pregnant. And no I don't regret it because my life has done ... [snip!] ... I'm doing so well and I am so happy with my kids I already have and am 100 percent able to be here for them. I'm just sad."

Oh I see

Quoting Legendary BAMF:" Maybe this will help you realize that sometimes abortions are very necessary/helpful for some people? ... [snip!] ... first is a bad thing most of the time. Maybe if you talk to somebody it will help you w/ what you're feeling. Good luck!"

Thank you. I will try to keep that in mind.

OP, I think you are probably just thinking a lot more about motherhood, which is normal. You want to be a mom, but maybe when you got your abortion the circumstances/time was not right for you to be thinking about having a baby. Which, btw, you didn't kill a baby. At 6 weeks, it's a lot different than a full term pregnancy. Don't be too hard on yourself, it was probably the right choice for you at the time.

I hope you are able to come to terms with your decision. Maybe look into some counseling if it starts to interfere with the rest of your life.