So torn with my decision still..

I am between abortion and parenting. Some days I am SO confident that I want to keep this baby, other days I am confident that I don't want that at all. I'm really stressed out. I've worked so hard to get through school and build a life for myself and my daughter. I've overcome so much in the past year and a half and I feel sometimes like I'm right back at the beginning. I was going to start a nursing program in February, which happens to be right when this baby is born which means that would go out the window, I would be on my own again most likely which is heartbreaking and having two young children would be so difficult. I JUST stopped breastfeeding my daughter (she's 21 months and I stopped at 18/19 months) and I loved it but it was hard work and having to do that again so soon was not a part of my plan. I don't know how I could support all three of us on my own. I just started being able to have a bit of my own life again, actually going out sometimes and doing things for me. I didn't leave my daughter's side for a year and then I worked very hard at school and that's all that my life was. I don't want to lose that, you know? I'm still young. I know how much I love my beautiful daughter, and that I would love any kid just as much, but I don't feel the same connection yet as I did with her from the very beginning either. I cry when I think about how much this little life will mean to me and what a blessing my daughter has been, what a blessing this child would be. But I just don't know how I can get through it. I wish this wasn't happening right now. I need to make a decision and I need to make it fast. Please help me.

Please feel free to message me or even call me. I just went through this exact scenario and chose abortion.

I think abortion would be the best option. You already have a child to think about and you are starting to get on your feet and moving on so you can make a better life. I wish you luck.  

ETA: I have done ALL THREE options. I had a son, then abortion and then placed my other son for adoption after I had him.

Although you may love another child, you could also harbor a lot resentment for putting yourself back into a bad situation. Abortion could allow you to keep enjoying your life in the state you are in now with your daughter and keep you from struggling. But the decision is only something you can decide. Maybe you could write out a list of pros and cons for having another baby or getting an abortion. That may help you compare.

I am here, send me a pm I think you should keep your baby. I know some women who chose abortion I respect their decisions, but it is something you may regret for the rest of your life. Especially, I feel that deep down you want to have your baby. Don't worry you are young and you will do well. If for some reason it will be hard to keep your baby you can give your baby into adoption and make couple happy. I know that your SO does not want his own baby, for me it is sad that you don't want your own blood.
I will wait for your message

Just from your post imo I honestly think you would regret having an abortion.

Quoting EskimoKiss:" Just from your post imo I honestly think you would regret having an abortion."

    

I know I would. I'm not even sure if they'd give me an abortion since I'm not 100% sure in that decision and it, in all honesty, is NOT what I want to o.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Suraya's mommy ♥:</b>" I know I would. I'm not even sure if they'd give me an abortion since I'm not 100% sure in that decision and it, in all honesty, is NOT what I want to o."</blockquote>

Having another baby will make things harder but not impossible remember that. *hugs*

Quoting EskimoKiss:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Suraya's mommy ♥:</b>" I know I would. I'm not even sure ... [snip!] ... NOT what I want to o."</blockquote> Having another baby will make things harder but not impossible remember that. *hugs*"

I guess, but sometimes I feel maybe it would be best for me to just live with regret than add so much hardship on my children and myself.  

Quoting jess_Hunter:"

Please delete.

Quoting Suraya's mommy ♥:" I guess, but sometimes I feel maybe it would be best for me to just live with regret than add so much hardship on my children and myself.  "

Look at it this way.

I got an abortion for a guy [I have learned to accept it and I made the best choice for myself and my son]. We didnt have to go on hard times until a few years later. Now we are in a bit of a bind but we are fine. I have also placed a child because I wasnt ready to parent another one and I wasnt ready for the fight with the other dad.

It is all up to you. Make a pro and con list.

Quoting Yurvon [♥]:" Look at it this way. I got an abortion for a guy [I have learned to accept it and I made the best ... [snip!] ... to parent another one and I wasnt ready for the fight with the other dad. It is all up to you. Make a pro and con list. "

I've made a lot of pros and cons list, I've printed out worksheets to help you figure out your decision and I've worked through them. I've talked to an adoption agency and abortion counselors, I've talked to doctors and my two counselors that I personally have. I am more confused after all of this than I was before.

Quoting Suraya's mommy ♥:" I've made a lot of pros and cons list, I've printed out worksheets to help you figure out your decision ... [snip!] ... I've talked to doctors and my two counselors that I personally have. I am more confused after all of this than I was before."

What do you want to do?

Quoting Yurvon [♥]:" What do you want to do? "

I want to keep the baby, but that makes me feel selfish. If it were a perfect world and I came into a little bit of money, FOR SURE I would keep this baby. I guess at the end of the day, that's all this decision is riding on - money.