Down on myself today...

I am a little over a month away from giving birth to my second child. As I sit here I'm wondering how did I let myself get to this point? How did I allow my self to have two kids and be married before I even finished high school? Why didn't I just stay in school and finish it when I was pregnant with my son instead of dropping out when I had him and waiting so long to go back? I know it's possible to graduate still, I'm working towards doing that. I just can't believe I was so stupid to let it get this far. I am trying to better myself for the sake of my children. I'm going to school to complete my HS education and hopefully somewhere down the line I'll be able to go to college. I just can't believe I let it get this far before I decided to do anything about it and really tried to work at graduating. I used to say, "Oh, there are better things I can do with my kids instead of sitting here doing school work." Now I'm saying, "Oh, after I do this assignment, we can do that" instead of just putting my schooling off longer.....

This is pointless, but I needed to write it out somewhere.

I hope you feel better soon sweetheart there's no point me saying the obvious - there's no point regretting what you can't change and you may have missed out on times with your child - as you obviously just need to get it out - much love xxx

Don't be too down on yourself. Everyone makes choices for their situation that at the time seem like the best alternative. My mother had my sister her senior year & dropped out & then had me 3 & 1/2 years later & until she was 7 months along with me she didn't even think of getting her GED. She finally did but it depressed her really badly because she had her first kid at 19 & she dropped out when she could have graduated before my sister was born but fear got the best of her. Then there she was at 22 & still didn't have anything together(no good job, 2 kids & no goal for herself)it took alot to get her out of that state of mind but she finally did & started working more after she got her GED & was able to support us with everything she had. Goodluck to you & I hope everything gets better for you!

Quoting Amanda Mada-chan Waldrop:" Don't be too down on yourself. Everyone makes choices for their situation that at the time seem like ... [snip!] ... got her GED & was able to support us with everything she had. Goodluck to you & I hope everything gets better for you!"

That's where I'm at right now. Luckily my husband graduated and has a job so he can support us but I feel like I am contributing nothing to our situation. I feel so down on myself about it and I just cannot wait to graduate. I've tried finding a job with no luck and I think it's because I have no education or working experience. It's hard. Really hard.

Quoting Pregasarus♥:" That's where I'm at right now. Luckily my husband graduated and has a job so he can support us but ... [snip!] ... tried finding a job with no luck and I think it's because I have no education or working experience. It's hard. Really hard. "

I know what you mean, I tried & tried to get a job. I got lucky with walmart but I didn't get to keep the job but a little over 6 months because of health issues