Quoting Mrs. Hemsworth ♥:" That is how I felt when I was pregnant with my son a couple years after mine... it's normal. Don't beat yourself up over it. Try and leave the past behind you and enjoy this pregnancy."
That is more helpful then you know. I know deep down this is silly but I can't control my dreams so I feel a little helpless so it's nice to know I'm not alone.
To everyone else thank you for the kind words and support. I believe in a peaceful god but I am also pro-choice (my choice being life) and never thought this would be something I was having to deal with, especially 4 years later.