July 10th 1999 :(

13 years ago today, my little sister Audrey passed away in a car accident. 17 days before her 15th birthday. She wasn't just my sister. She was my first friend. My best friend. She was a part of me. When she died a piece of me died with her.

As time goes on, I miss her more. Every year, this day gets harder. Hell, everyday gets harder. I feel like I am losing my memories of her. I hate that I ha...ve no new memories with her. It hurts that my boys will never know her. Only what I tell them about her. Her memory does live on in me though and I will continue to remember her everyday of my life.

I love you, Audrey. My first memory is of holding you. My last memory is of telling you that I loved you. The year before you died we had never been so close. I think it was God's way of giving me more great memories to remember you by. I am thankful for that year, for all the memories that of you, that I was able to be your big sister. It literally hurts my heart how much I miss you. I am sure you miss me as well but I hope that you are at peace in Heaven. I hate thinking about you hurting. Even though, we are far apart, I will always be your big sister. I still need the support that you always gave me too. Please look over me, Randel, our children (here and in Heaven), our friends and our family. Help us get through the days until we see you again. Rest in Peace, baby sister.

I miss when it was my sister and I against the world...  


I am on the left and Audrey is on the right.

aw hun i'm sorry for your loss   i can't imagine what you are going through or what you have been through... *hugs* that is very sad :'(

I know it doesn't help any, but I'm sorry for your loss. Losing someone that close to you is painful beyond belief.

April 11 of this year, was the 10th anniversary of my little brother passing away. He was one month shy of turning 14 and I was 16. I miss him tons, too. Talking about him and I still cry. Life goes on, but love goes on forever and forever.

I unfortunately know the feeling all too well...my bro will be gone 5 long years in November. I also feel as if i'm losing memories :'(

This made me cry . . .you sister was really pretty i hope things get better for you

I'm so sorry for your loss    

Sorry for you loss sweetie, she was beautiful <3

I'm sorry for your loss Amanda  

This made me so sad to read. She was beautiful. RIP.
<3

sorry for your lost!! i know what it feels to loose someone you care about

She was beautiful.

Quoting Angie Mother of Boys:" April 11 of this year, was the 10th anniversary of my little brother passing away. He was one month shy ... [snip!] ... 14 and I was 16. I miss him tons, too. Talking about him and I still cry. Life goes on, but love goes on forever and forever. "

It use to be easier to talk about her. Some days I am still okay. Most of the time, I get choked up. Like today, I had to take my son into town to get his new glasses. We passed by a tow truck that had a wrecked truck on it. You can see the airbag hanging out. He started asking questions about car accidents. Well, he knows his Aunt Audrey died in a car accident so he started asking questions about her. Normally, I don't mind. Today it was so hard. Especially some of the questions. Like why can't we visit her in Heaven. He is only 5, so he doesn't get it yet. I am happy that he talks about her and he wants to know more about her life and her death. I want to keep her memory alive.

Quoting NewMommyXOXO:" I unfortunately know the feeling all too well...my bro will be gone 5 long years in November. I also feel as if i'm losing memories :'("

Them being gone is hard, but not being able to remember certain things about them is horrible. It makes me feel like a terrible sister.

Thank you everyone for your condolesences. I appreciate your support. This one of the many reasons that I love BG