anxiety

having a major anxiety attack and feeling really angry. it's been four years since my termination, that at the time i didn't really want, if you read my previous posts. i just stumbled accross a conversation on another pregnancy forum where people were talking about abortion and being very disrespectful. it's just made me feel really smurffy. i thought i was starting to move on from it but i'm not. in fact i am welling up typing this. if i could turn back time i would have never gone through with my termination. but it doesn't mean i don't support those who choose to go through with one. it was and still is a very difficult thing for me and it's like whenever i see the word 'abortion' it all comes back to me, the flashbacks, the memories. it's like i'm obsessed. has anyone found any good coping methods? i'm already having counselling but it doesn't really help the way i thought it would. i know it effects different people in different ways but for me it was very traumatic and i am not grieving well at all. sorry for the rant. sorry if i sound like a dick.

Quoting Ellie Shikari:" having a major anxiety attack and feeling really angry. it's been four years since my termination, that ... [snip!] ... ways but for me it was very traumatic and i am not grieving well at all. sorry for the rant. sorry if i sound like a dick."

I've never had an abortion, but I couldnt imagine having one then regretting it. I think the only thing thats going to make it go away is time, and I know you said that you already waited four years. :/ Maybe you could try to remember the reasons you got one? Good luck with everything.