Quoting ♥2ndTri♥:" Im not judging Im honestly just wondering.. Why do you stay with someone you wouldnt be with only for ... [snip!] ... ways {kinda i mean i know you'll still have a relationship for the kids} and find someone who would make you completely happy?"

I do love him, most of the time, Im just a very luke warm person when it comes to being with someone. I have issues, I want to be single and then I want to be with SO too. I cant have both and I know that. I have always been this way, whenever Im with someone I always think there is someone better that I could be with, that is what caused most of my relationships to end in the past. If it weren't for our kids I would have probably broke up with SO to "try and find someone better". Im a mind smurf lol I dont get how SO puts up with me sometimes lol.