Losing it.....

I feel like an ass because I just posted about how amazing everything was yesterday...but now I feel like I'm losing it. LO has been crying all night, I think it's gas, but w/e it's breaking my heart. And I tell SO that I'm scared she's too perfect, that somethings going to happen to her, that I'm failing her in some way, that I'm on edge and I cried my eyes out. And then we go upstairs to bed and she wakes up and starts crying again. And he says "if you had brought her up earlier she probably wouldn't have woken up."

I flipped and told him he's an ass, I had to put the baby in her bassinet and leave the room to stop myself from yelling at him... Went in the bathroom, cried my eyes out again, went back in the room and smurfed up by trying to explain to him why what he said to me made me freak out. And of course that escalated things, and I told him I hate him. I absolutely do not hate him. He's amazing. I'm a smurfing mess.
And I've got so much guilt over not being able to hold it together in front of the baby. God I hate myself a lot right now. This is only day three of LO's life and I'm already a basket case. And watch, tomorrow I'll be totally fine again.

Clearly I need to call my psychiatrist tomorrow...

I think it sounds like you may be having some ppd or baby blues which is TOTALLY normal in the early days after birth. I really suggest getting in touch with you doctor and telling them everything you are feeling, they will understand and be able to help. Either way, feel free to vent cry and scream here rather than taking it out on SO, we're here for you!

may not be PPD...your hormones are so out of whack right now, it takes awhile to get back to pre baby hormones, you are tired, and probably running on fumes...lack of sleep can get the best of you. Honestly try as hard as you can to get some rest its super important. ps. baby wont even remember you freaking out in front of her!  

you are fine. Its normal to act like that. expecially only being day 3. im sure i will be just like that when my LO is here. just call the doctore and see what they can do for you. just take a deep breath. always here to talk to if you need to vent!!!

Quoting ☮live:" I think it sounds like you may be having some ppd or baby blues which is TOTALLY normal in the early ... [snip!] ... and be able to help. Either way, feel free to vent cry and scream here rather than taking it out on SO, we're here for you!"

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Quoting ☮live:" I think it sounds like you may be having some ppd or baby blues which is TOTALLY normal in the early ... [snip!] ... and be able to help. Either way, feel free to vent cry and scream here rather than taking it out on SO, we're here for you!"

Thank you. I'm pretty sure it would have only gotten worse if I couldn't vent here. Love BG, I would be completely lost without it.

Quoting GlowWormsMommy:" Thank you. I'm pretty sure it would have only gotten worse if I couldn't vent here. Love BG, I would be completely lost without it."

I've felt the same way numerous times, both about the freaking out and being lost without BG! It really is such a helpful community of (albeit sometimes bitchy) women.

Quoting ☮live:" I've felt the same way numerous times, both about the freaking out and being lost without BG! It really is such a helpful community of (albeit sometimes bitchy) women."

Yeah, it”s totally worth the bitchiness..plus I have my bitchy moments too.

Don't beat yourself up over this! All those hormones are going crazy right now, and it's hard to keep your smurf together sometimes. I lost it one day after she peed, puked and pooped on the couch all within like a 3 hour period. I felt like the worst mom ever and my husband telling me I wasn't doing things right killed me inside. She's almost 4 months now and tehre's still times when you just need to break down. You're exhauseted and overwhelmed. It happens! Take a deep breath, go take a nice long shower and try to find your sanity again. lol