life is tough sometimes
posted 1st Jul '12
I just found out a few hours ago that one of my closest friends growing up in high school just died last night. I found out after work tonite and I drove to her mothers house just praying the news wasn't true. I saw her mom and she saw me, we just held eachother close and cried and cried. I don't know exactly what happened. We won't officially know until Thursday. The only thing I do know is that she was an hour and a half away from home. I wish I knew more. We didn't have words for awhile bc she was still single and I had my son. The last time we did have a conversation we were suppose to meet up at some point and hang out. We never got that chance. I wish I would've done something more to initiate the meet up and now I just feel regret. I was the first friend she had when she moved here from Pennsylvania. Her house is where I lived at when my mom kicked me out and I lived there for several months. This hurts so bad. I have pictures of us on my coffee table right now. Last night was so strange too bc I couldn't sleep. I was beyond exhausted and just kept tossing and turning. Tossing and turning and no matter what I did I just couldn't sleep. Coincidence or not I donno. The strangest thing of all is I'm due on her birthday of next year. I think I found a name for my baby. Casey.. I'll love you forever Casey Lynette Andrews. XOXO
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