re: The What Ifs D&D

I would already be done with my masters and be living in India working on my PhD. I wouldn't have married my husband and I would likely have been where I expected my life to be at this point. Single, traveling the world, and discovering ancient civilizations.

Quoting A❤T=P[Bun in th Ov:" I grew up in a family where teen pregnancy and high school drop outs were the norm. I never wanted that ... [snip!] ... child before 20 (except my brilliant prodigy neice who just turned 20) and the only college graduate. I am the "black " sheep."

Every girl in my family got pregnant in their 20's including me.

My brother was the only "teen parent", but then again, he is the only sibling who is still married to the mother of his children!! haha

I used to wonder about the "what ifs" all the time when I was married to my ex husband. I wondered what my life would have been like if I had ended up with the guy that I have thought was my soulmate since I was 18. It was constant. Then one day I quit wondering and met up with my "soulmate" and left my husband the next day. Now we have a wonderful life together and a beautiful son and a little girl on the way. I feel like this is exactly how my life should be. I was probably wrong in leaving my husband but I don't regret it. I didn't have kids with him and I wasn't exactly happy. Sometimes now, I shiver at the thought of "what if" I had never left my ex for Matt and how life would be. But I never wonder about the "what ifs" anymore without being incredibly thankful for the way my life has turned out.

I wonder what I would be like if I had the self discipline and control over my personality disorder like I have now.

Things would have been a hell of a lot easier for myself.

If I hadn't had DD, I probably wouldn't have DH, I wouldn't have discovered the passion and drive to want to become a nurse, and I probably still wouldn't have my driver's license.
Things may be a little harder right now having had my kids so young, but I'm grateful I did and I wouldn't change that for anything!

Quoting Rumpelstiltskin:" Over which choice? I don't just mean having a kid... do you ever wonder if you had chosen different friends or something like that...?"

over doing drugs and robbing people.
then i moved away from my home town, met SO, had a child..my life changed.
Im 100% of a different person.

I think about it all the time. I think of all the fun I could have had, all the crazy adventures.
I think about the guys I may have dated. If I would have finished college or if I'd have joined the army (I totally thought about it a few times.)

But ya know. I don't think I'd be the awesome person I am now. I'm so accepting of people now, more than I used to be. I'm a lot less angry at the world and I don't feel so devastated.

I think this is the life that was meant for me. Even if I'd finished college ( I wanted to be a teacher) I don't think I would have liked it. I hate kids (other people's kids anyways, lol) and I'm not good with a lot of pressure.

I'm now living a pretty good life. I'm a SAHM training to be a fitness nutritionist, my husband is training to be a personal trainer. We spend our time just enjoying eachothers company. We don't want for much and we don't have too much stress or drama in our lives.

I am the type to obsess over the tiniest decisions, but oddly once they are made, I never look back.

It is fun to wonder sometimes I guess, but I am happy with where I am and all the craptacular choices that somehow brought me here.

I do wonder sometimes---I mean if I knew then what I know now, I would have definitly done things a lot diffrently.

But I have accomplished so much for myself and have yet to accomplish even more for myself because of my son that words can't even explain how that makes me feel  

I wonder sometimes what my life would be like if my parents never moved me and my brother from Toronto to where I grew up.
they didn't want to raise us in a big city where the crime and gang rate was high.


We go and visit family there and the life style they all had and do now is not what I had. My cousins were all into bad drugs and stuff and I am thankful I was not around all that. Cause who knows what would have happened lol

I wonder a lot too.

I know for sure I'd be working...having fun...being an ass...

Now I have responsibilities and whatnot. I was 21 when I had her, and still kind of feel I could have done more...maybe when she goes to school....who knows.

Quoting Rumpelstiltskin:" Do you ever wonder about the "what if's"?? If I hadn't had Novali my life would have been so different. ... [snip!] ... wanted to... have you ever spent more than one hour a week, say, day dreaming about how different your life could have been?? "

My life would be SmUrfED without Lily.
I wouldn't have graduated college.
I probably wouldnt have gone into education even if I did go

I do sometimes but I don't put my choices as right or wrong. It's like we choose between several doors to walk through and each will have a different path within.