Quoting preggoteenconfusion:" yea that's a part of my issue I don't think I'll feel at peace with one... afterwards... I'll be ... [snip!] ... been... and not what is... like its an unwanted choice but i wonder if it has to be done to be as successful as want to be...."
Making a decision that u dont really want to do can disable your plans of a successful future faster than having a baby does sometimes.I personnally know several women(i met at a therapy group) that have terminated pregnancy that they wanted because everyone coersed them that they could be a good mom and they couldnt have a good future......Even though each case is alittle different , the out come was basically the same....depression and guilt that led to either drug use, night terrors, ptsd, hospitalization, or a multiple of these things.
If u arent strong enough to overcoming your longing to have this child....dont u think it would be easier on u to obtain your goals while raising a baby then trying to live w/ a decision u didnt want to make????