dealing

I had a miscarriage October 1. My baby's due date was May 5. I can't help but still think about it. It is SOOOOO depressing! And I have nobody I feel comfortable talking to about it. My sons dad and I are at war right now, and he doesnt even remember anyway. I dont know anybody else IRL that has had this happen to them. Earlier today my aunt posted a facebook status about how her daughter would be 19 years old today. Not in those exact words, she said it in a way only family would understand what she was talking about. But i still remember when I was a little kid(calculating now I must have been 4) and my cousins came over all excited because their mom was having a baby, and then I remember them all being upset because the baby had died. I know its not the same as a miscarriage but it affected me when I saw that status earlier and I've been crying ever since.
I wish my baby was here with me right now.

aww im sorry for you loss i can only image how bad that feels, i know its hard but i hope you feel better with it eventually