This seriously sucks

I really wish my pancreas wasn't broken. UGH! I am just in a mood tonight. For the past few weeks I have been feeling incredibly sick. I am worn down, nauseous, I've had some puking, I'm irritable, and in pain. This really isn't fair. I am at my wits end with my pancreas and I am about ready to cut it out myself. I see my GI on Thursday so I am hoping he can give me some meds to help. I also get the results of my stomach digesting study and my MRCP. I am nervous to find out what condition my pancreas is in, if it's not doing well looks like I will have to go back to Indy and possibly get another feeding tube placed and prepare for yet another surgery. UGH. Sorry for the pity party just stressed the hell out and my pancreas being broken just really sucks.