....and now I'm starting to have crazy, irrational fears.
This is my first pregnancy. I'm 34 weeks. The doctor I was seeing was a perfectly nice and knowledgeable guy. However, he was always very rushed and....awkward and I had a hard time speaking up or asking any of my billions of questions. I didn't realize this so much until I had to see a nurse practitioner the other day due to scheduling conflicts and I was completely comfortable asking her anything and everything and I felt SO much better when I left the visit.....until I started thinking about how I felt after visiting with him, and then I cried the whole way home. I called today and made an appointment with a different, female doctor. Now, I'm starting to freak out about THIS decision. She's younger, so I immediately assume she's inexperienced and will kill me. I'm a very reasonable, rational person For real though, I'm not from here and I've only been at this practice since week 22 so I haven't really had a chance to build a relationship or learn about the doctors. How can I comfort myself and believe that this doctor is perfectly capable of delivering my baby? I guess I'm mostly worried that I might have something go wrong. What if this doctor doesn't handle it correctly? What if a different doctor would have saved my life or my baby's life? My anxiety is out of control lately!