Have you ever dealt with this?

I just stopped my Zoloft and I feel a thousand times better, but I still can't shake these little random smurffy moods I get into. I'm pretty positive it's not depression, though.

I'm happy right now... happier than I've been in a long time. But I wake up in a smurf mood and it doesn't go away for the rest of the day. Me and DH could be having a great time, but I still have a lump in my throat. I'm pretty much on the verge of tears every minute.

If I accidentally run into a chair, can't find something, drop something, or anything like that... the lump in my throat hurts even worse and if I'm alone, I'll let it out and bawl my eyes out.

As embarrassing as it is, I think I'm suffering from BDD (even though I hate to self diagnose with Web MD). My self esteem is at an all time low and this is making the lumps in my throat/need to cry even more difficult.

Any of you ladies ever experience this? I hate that I get in these moods because it ruins me and DH's alone time  

I have never been on or off Zoloft.

However i do have BDD, and find it very hard to function in social settings. I don't cry always, but if things do not fit me, or if i feel badly that day. (particularly more than usual) I will cry. I have stood in front of a mirror bawling because my pants were like, slightly to tight.

does that happen to you?

What is BDD?

Quoting *Giuliana's Mommy*:" What is BDD?"

Body dysmorphic disorder..

Quoting Puff the Magic Dragon!:" I have never been on or off Zoloft. However i do have BDD, and find it very hard to function in social ... [snip!] ... I will cry. I have stood in front of a mirror bawling because my pants were like, slightly to tight. does that happen to you?"

Every single day. I just don't cry, I hold it back. It makes that lump in my throat even worse. I don't want to cry in front of my kids or my husband. Especially not in front of my kids..

Quoting Mrs. Potato Dick:" Everyday. I just don't cry, I hold it back. It makes that lump in my throat even worse. I don't want to cry in front of my kids or my husband. Especially not in front of my kids..."

Yes, same issue here. I find it very important to hold back, because i don't want my kids feeling these feelings/having these issues. I hold it back significantly from SO too, because he does not understand how i feel. Doesn't understand BDD, just doesn't....understand.

I find it contributes a lot to my relationships in general, and have a very hard time accepting people as well as myself!

Do you have a therapist?

Quoting Puff the Magic Dragon!:" Yes, same issue here. I find it very important to hold back, because i don't want my kids feeling these ... [snip!] ... a lot to my relationships in general, and have a very hard time accepting people as well as myself! Do you have a therapist?"

Same here. It hurts my heart to think of my daughter ever having these self esteem issues like I do.

My doctor said I needed to see a therapist, but I've been putting it off. Even though I know this is the last thing that I need to be putting off. Heh. I know it's affecting my marriage negatively and it really upsets my husband.

I've always thought that I also have BDD.
No medication I've been on (for depression, bipolar, anxiety, ect ect ect) has really helped it at all-- the meds just give me the ability to choose not to cry sometimes.

Quoting ^-^ Rawr.:" I've always thought that I also have BDD. No medication I've been on (for depression, bipolar, anxiety, ... [snip!] ... bipolar, anxiety, ect ect ect) has really helped it at all-- the meds just give me the ability to choose not to cry sometimes."

Yeah, it was weird how difficult it was to cry with Zoloft. I guess the Zoloft helped "curb" the BDD for a while because it seems to be a lot worse now. But, I'm not exhausted and moody anymore.

I'm surprised no one said this, but when did you get off the Zoloft? Withdrawal symptoms from an antidepressant can make you very weepy, among several other symptoms. You have to wean yourself VERY slowly.

Quoting *Wyatts Mommy*:" I'm surprised no one said this, but when did you get off the Zoloft? Withdrawal symptoms from an antidepressant ... [snip!] ... symptoms from an antidepressant can make you very weepy, among several other symptoms. You have to wean yourself VERY slowly."

I have. My dr has been weaning me off for months. Took my last dose almost a month ago and that was just 50 mg which is nothing compared to the 200 I used to be on months ago.

Do you think I could be experiencing withdrawals?

Quoting Mrs. Potato Dick:" Same here. It hurts my heart to think of my daughter ever having these self esteem issues like I do. ... [snip!] ... last thing that I need to be putting off. Heh. I know it's affecting my marriage negatively and it really upsets my husband. "

*sorry i posted and ran, then forgot.   *

But yes, exactly the same thing, i could have said everything myself.
I need to see a therapist too.. :/ I think i'm a bit ashamed.
I don't want my girls feeling this EVER either.. My SO is extremely dis-heartened and fed up because it's an everyday thing, all day.. It's hard, your not alone!! <3

I was just put on zoloft but havent picked up the prescription yet.. debating on if I want to get on it or not! Would you reccomend it? I have very bad anxiety issues (that was caused from post traumatic stress) he wants me to take them for 2 months and than have a follow up!

Quoting Gage's Mom!:" I was just put on zoloft but havent picked up the prescription yet.. debating on if I want to get on ... [snip!] ... anxiety issues (that was caused from post traumatic stress) he wants me to take them for 2 months and than have a follow up!"

It worked for me initially and then wore off. It's worth a shot. Everyone reacts to antidepressants in different ways. It's so weird how that works.