Quoting Loka Lokita:" It's been a week since my abortion and I just want to die. I have been completely fine all week, thought ... [snip!] ... me to look. I know I made the right decision but I am SO SAD...just tell me what makes the pain stop I can't handle it anymore."
Sorry for your experience. But nothing can make your pain go away. Woman who have abortions, tend to think about them through out there lives. You'r not selfish, you did what was best for you at the time. you need to grieve, let it out, don't hold it in because only time can make it better. Woman who keep babies from rap, also tend to have a grudge towards the child no matter how much they love it.
Don't be so hard on yourself, none of this is your fault.