Lonely...I'm Mr. (Ms.) Lonely...

As I posted in FFA, I didn't get the job for which I had been interviewing. I was crushed to find that out, but I was even more crushed when I later realized that I have NO ONE. I e-mailed the girl who calls herself my best friend, and I said something in the e-mail, too, about how they're considering me for a different position, and she just said, "That'd be cool. Well, I'm starving, so I'm out to lunch." I got NO sympathy from her. I decided a long time ago that she and I will be COMPLETELY done when I get a new job (she has a lot of dirt on me from this job, and she could get me fired if she wanted to), but I decided today that I'm done with her.

Last week, I broke up with the guy I had been dating (via the internet, since he lives in the UK), but I text messaged him to tell him I didn't get the job, and he texted back that he was sorry, so I got a little sympathy from him, but I don't feel like it's fair for me to bring him back into my life as my support system. We're still friends, but I want him to say the things he used to say, and that's just unfair of me.

I lost most of my friends when I got pregnant...really, the only person I still talked to was this girl who thinks she's my BFF, and I really don't consider her a friend anymore, either. I have never felt more alone in my entire life. I've been in GA for two years, and I had made some friends, but obviously they weren't GOOD friends because they didn't stick around during my difficult times.

And I'm going to admit something that I'm almost afraid to admit, but here it is: if I didn't have my daughter, I'd be SERIOUSLY suicidal right now. I feel trapped in my job, I'm drowning in a sea of debt, and I'm indescribably lonely. Cadence is the only thing keeping me going.

Well, there it is. I just needed to get all that out.  

I feel you! I have my husband but lets just say he hasn't been as supportive as I though he would be....
We moved to NC about 8 months ago and Ihave no one here and I don't want to call home just to complain. My mother worries enough about me just because I'm preg. OUY life sucks!

I'm very sorry that you didn't get the job.  
Things will get better. It sucks not having friends (trust me, I know!), but it's better to know now rather than later that they were bad friends to begin with, right?
Just remember that you have a beautiful daughter who loves you no matter what.

I'm sorry you didn't get the job that you wanted, but if you look in the bright side it means that job wasn't really for you and you're set to get something much better.  
I really hope that despite the inconsideration from your bestfriend and the guy you used to date that you continue to keep your head high because you have a beautiful daughter and got a whole lotta girls on here who are here to talk..

PM me if you ever need to talk =)

Quoting Miss Brittany.:“ I'm very sorry that you didn't get the job.   Things will get better. It sucks not having friends (trust ... [snip!] ... they were bad friends to begin with, right? Just remember that you have a beautiful daughter who loves you no matter what.”

Very true...the saddest part is, they are all "Christians," and I can't shake the feeling that they abandoned me because I got pregnant out of wedlock.

Gotta love those judgmental Christians.  

Im so sorry you are going through this. I don't know what to tell you to make you feel better...i know when i have days like that...there isn't really anything that anyone can say to make it better.
Just try and think about the positive things in your life!
And i know exactly what you mean about the friend thing...
my "best friend" is my SIL and thinks she is my best friend. and i do love her...but i don't trust her one bit. my mom is my only true friend. it sucks not having a REAL friend. (besides my mom)
Too bad we don't live closer...we could be friends 
i'd come kidnap you and make you feel better about your shitty day!

I'm right there with you! I feel completly alone also, since I just went through a breakup and I litterly have no friends. I lost the only one I did have when I go pregnant with my first child and since then I've been to involed with being a mom to make any new friends. I have my family but I need someone else.
It really sucks that you didn't the job, it can be so frusting job hunting. I hope that you do get the other postion and then maybe you can work your way up. You never know what will happen!

Quoting I'mamama:“ Very true...the saddest part is, they are all "Christians," and I can't shake the feeling that they abandoned me because I got pregnant out of wedlock. Gotta love those judgmental Christians.  ”

I don't believe that they should judge you because of that. Even if they believe it's a sin. What's that quote from the bible? "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone."

Quoting bgirlmama:“ I'm sorry you didn't get the job that you wanted, but if you look in the bright side it means that job ... [snip!] ... you have a beautiful daughter and got a whole lotta girls on here who are here to talk.. PM me if you ever need to talk =)”

All true.

I'm just holding out hope that this other position comes through...otherwise, I will sink deeper into my sea of debt. As it stands right now, I owe my parents about $400, not including all the money I owe them for paying my cell phone and insurance bills for the past 4 months, plus all my hospital bills and college loan bills that are piling up. I make okay money where I am right now, but it's obviously not enough for me to survive. This other job would be at least $6,000 a year more, plus the benefits are AMAZING...all I can do is pray for the best.

Quoting Tee's mommy:“ Im so sorry you are going through this. I don't know what to tell you to make you feel better...i know ... [snip!] ... mom) Too bad we don't live closer...we could be friends  i'd come kidnap you and make you feel better about your shitty day!”

Lol...yep, my only friends right now are my mom and my SIL (who is my real best friend), and my SIL lives in Hawaii.  

I could go for a kidnapping right about now.  

Quoting Miss Brittany.:“ I don't believe that they should judge you because of that. Even if they believe it's a sin. What's that quote from the bible? "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone."”

Yeah, most Christians tend to skip that verse when they're reading the Bible.

Quoting I'mamama:“ Very true...the saddest part is, they are all "Christians," and I can't shake the feeling that they abandoned me because I got pregnant out of wedlock. Gotta love those judgmental Christians.  ”

That's how I felt when I got pregnant with my first son! Alot of the people I knew/ were my friends are christians and I just felt that deep down they were going to judge me for getting pregnant out of wedlock and even to this day I feel like they are even though I have no proof. I am a christian myself but being that I'm having kids out of wedlock I'm not going to judge anyone. Heck even if I didn't I still wouldn't judge people.

Quoting I'mamama:“ Lol...yep, my only friends right now are my mom and my SIL (who is my real best friend), and my SIL lives in Hawaii.   I could go for a kidnapping right about now.  ”

My SIL used to be the best friend ever...and we still have a blast together..but she kinda has a drug and drinking problem...so she is like this whole other person these days. it really breaks my heart...but she won't listen. i just leave it alone.
i know what you mean tho...moms as bfs just isn't the same. i guess tommy kinda qualifies as my best friend too...but he's a GUY who doesn't understand shit.
But don't worry mama! things will get better.
go home to your beautiful baby girl and have a DRINK..(for me, too)
gah when i have hormonal days....i always think..."if only i could have a drink"
Hope you feel better. Maybe one of these days...ill take a trip your way 

Quoting I'mamama:“ All true. I'm just holding out hope that this other position comes through...otherwise, I will sink ... [snip!] ... This other job would be at least $6,000 a year more, plus the benefits are AMAZING...all I can do is pray for the best.”

*ugh* i hear you on that. when i moved out of my parents house i thought i was such a badass spending money here-racking up a credit card here- and now, i'm in debt (but not so serious) that i think i'll have to work up until i'm at least 7 months prego..

Quoting Tee's mommy:“ My SIL used to be the best friend ever...and we still have a blast together..but she kinda has a drug ... [snip!] ... think..."if only i could have a drink" Hope you feel better. Maybe one of these days...ill take a trip your way  ”

Lol...I have two strawberry daquiri wine coolers waiting for me at home.  

That way, I can have one for me and one for you, but not get drunk (or even buzzed) so I'm still able to take care of Cadence.