Quoting Bye..Deleted...:" I just want to say this last thing in my defense: I'm not innocent and have never indicated that I ... [snip!] ... my posts or through private messages. I really appreciated all of the good advice and really that's it. Thanks again. Bye."
Your childhood isn't an excuse. and jesus christ, you said "i didn't get a husband" CAUSE YOU WERE 18
when you GAVE UP looking because you found this SmUrfING GEM.
the ONLY reasonable advice ANYONE could give you is LEAVE. NOW. FAST. IN A SmUrfING HURRY. do not let this man anywhere NEAR your life. IF he so CHOOSES to be a dad to these kids, that's it. there should be no sexual relationship between the two of you, until there IS a DIVORCE AND YOU SEE THE PROOF.
you can't take this "man's" words for smurf. he wouldn't know the smurfing truth if it bit him on the ass.