It's harder to accept, when I know i'd be getting further al

As every thursday comes around, I think to myself "oh, i'd be ___ weeks today" and it just gets me down more, as time goes on. I know I can't think like that and it's probably something that everyone does after going through a loss. I've got a couple of apps on my phone that tell me exactly how far along I am to the day, and it gives you detailed daily updates of development. I've had them on there since I was 4 weeks pregnant and today it came through on my phone "CONGRATULATIONS you are officially in the second trimester!" Today i'm meant to be 14 weeks. I look on the app every now and then to read the development of how far I would have been and I just wish so much that my baby would have reached those milestones   In myself, i'm feeling better. So much better as each day goes past. It's been exactly two weeks today since we found out the bad news and i'm actually feeling back to my normal, smiling self again. It's just getting harder in the way of knowing i'd of been getting further and further in my pregnancy. Getting more of a bump. I'll be a wreck when my due date gets here  


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I'm so sorry hunnie. I know JUST what you're feeling. My close friend conceived 3 days before I did; so I got to watch her ultrasound video yesterday knowing my baby would be the same gestational age if I didn't lose it. Smurfing sucks.

I'm sorry. I went through the exact same thing with my miscarriage. It was really tough. It's been almost a year now and it does get easier, but it takes a long time. Hang in there.

I went through it too.
It gets better with time... but yeah your due date might be a hot mess day. I bawled my eyes out from a few days before and on my due date.
My 1st loss was much harder than my 2nd. ( because I was further along and actually saw the baby and heard the heart beat)
I was 13 weeks along.

I'm sorry for your loss honey.

Quoting Lilly-Jade:" As every thursday comes around, I think to myself "oh, i'd be ___ weeks today" and it just gets me down ... [snip!] ... been getting further and further in my pregnancy. Getting more of a bump. I'll be a wreck when my due date gets here   xx"

It IS hard, and I thought the same way as you... I lost my baby at 14 weeks. It was hard. I just had to let my body heal, and then I had to let my heart heal. Its still hard, but Ive accepted it now. I will never forget but I had to move on from the hurt, for my other kids.

Ive lost 6 babies and the only thing that heals it is time.

it will get easier.
<3

It gets a lot better with time, Try not to go look at the development even though its hard sometimes. Im sorry for your loss  

It is very difficult. I went through the exact same thing, with the app. But I was getting emails. And my cousin and friend from back in high school were pregnant the same time as well, we all conceived only days apart. Yet I lost my angel and had to watch them go through the whole experience just wishing it was me. It does take some time but it gets easier and the wound heals but the scar is always there. Even now, a year on I think what may have been.
Chin up hun x

Thanks for the support guys, means a lot<33
To the people who are saying they're having to watch someone else go through it, oh me too. My bestfriend Layla is expecting. She conceived apparently on the 22. March, and me on the 29. Just the day before I found out the bad news, she was telling me all about how her baby was sucking its thumb and eating its foot on the 12 week scan and I just couldn't wait for the next day to get here to see my baby do those things, but no. I've not seen her since I found out, I know it's not her fault but we were both so excited together and she still will be excited for herself. I'm excited for her too but how could I look at her bump without my heart clearly breaking in two  

Sorry for all your losses x

Quoting Lilly-Jade:" Thanks for the support guys, means a lot<33 To the people who are saying they're having to watch someone ... [snip!] ... excited for her too but how could I look at her bump without my heart clearly breaking in two   Sorry for all your losses x"

My sister and I were pregnant at the same time when I lost mine. It was very difficult for me to be around her or even talk to her. I hated all pregnant women. It felt so unfair.

Quoting *Demon Llama*:" My sister and I were pregnant at the same time when I lost mine. It was very difficult for me to be around her or even talk to her. I hated all pregnant women. It felt so unfair."

I'm like that right now too. I'm seeing pregnant woman literally everywhere I go. I feel like I can't step out the door without something upsetting me. I keep seeing the pram I loved EVERYWHERE now, when I hardly saw it before. My friends due date is only a week ahead of me, I was due the 20th December and her the 13th. It might seem unfair that's because it IS unfair  

I went through that too. My due date was really hard. We did a balloon release with messages written on the balloons. It helped to be able to do something with my family in my angels memory.

Quoting Hannah & Emma's Mommy:" I went through that too. My due date was really hard. We did a balloon release with messages written on the balloons. It helped to be able to do something with my family in my angels memory."

That's a really sweet thing to do. Sorry for your loss. I'd love to do something like that but my due date was literally right before Christmas and i'm scared i'd be a reck. I know i'd be in pieces if we did something like that although I expect it will get a lot easier from now until then. x