I hope to god im posting in the right forum. If I didnt im sorry.
Anyways, on June 10th (the day my period was due) i found out I was pregnant. I am not on birth control ( i am actually not allowed to be on birth control as per dr's orders because ive been having liver problems and they havent determined whats causing it ywt) but me and SO were very careful about not having sex when i was fertile, i tracked my ovulation with one of them tracking apps, and used condoms for the most part/pulled out.
So right now as it stands we are not in the best position for a 2nd child. We just got back together after 3 months of living apart and only seeing each other on weekends, we are still not getting along THAT well, but alot better. Im currently a full time college student and my mat leave just ended so i was going to find a full time job because my last job was part time. And money isnt that tight, but it would be with a 2nd child especially because i wouldnt have enough work hours to get mat leave pay.
So after some very very hard thinking I am almost positive im going to go through with the abortion tomorrow. I feel EXTREMELY guilty and I really tried to be as careful as possible to not end up in this situation but things didn't work out the way we'd hoped to. I have to take the medications soon (antibiotics) im just scared about the whole thing.
Is there anyone who could PM me to give me some support im pretty scared right now.
I am really sorry you are going through all of this. Right now you are doing what is best for you and your child. There is absolutely nothing to feel guilty over. *hugs* You will get through this, hun.
Thanks to you both. Im just scared mostly now. It sounds like such a scary procedure to be put to sleep and have an oxygen tube in my throat. that part isnt sitting with me very well. i wish i could keep it, but its just not fair i cant give this baby the life it deserves financially right now and it wouldnt be fair to my son now if that makes sense this is such a hard decision