My abortion experience.
posted 16th Jun '12
While visiting this site, |I have come across very many woman stuck in a situation where they are faced with the hardest decisions of their lives and my heart goes out to you all, because I have been there. I have been in the same spot as you, scared and confused, trying to make the best choice possible.
December 9th, 2010 I aborted my child, 10 weeks along.
My Finance (at the time) and I had been to together for 3 years, we have a 1 year old beautiful son together and we just found out I was pregnant again. Following that exciting news we had just moved into a house, I was scared, nervous and excited all at once. No more apartment living! We could finally have the space that we need..we just got engaged and now we were expecting baby #2! Life was perfect!
3 weeks after moving, I found out he had been cheating on me, I moved out but due to having no where to go, I became homeless. I never thought I would be homeless, sleeping on friends couches with my son. I never thought my finance would betray me so much. He stopped seeing my son and quickly got attached to drugs. I wish I could explain how much my world was falling apart, but on top of everything, I was still pregnant with our child. I became scared, at this point I begged him to take me back, so that I would have a place to live and not have to have this abortion, I begged him to change, so stop doing what he was doing, and to bring his family back.. but he told me "I smurfing hate you, and I don't give a smurf you're pregnant"
It broke my heart, and I knew keeping this baby was no longer a choice, I couldn't be homeless with 2 children.
It was the single more heart breaking experience in my life. Its been almost 2 years since this has happened, and I suppose I came here in hopes I would read forums in ways to cope with this because to this day, I still cry over it, I still regret it and I still miss more than anything, the baby I never got to hold or know. But please know that things do get better, don't ever let anyone tell you what's best for you.
This will be the most hardest decision you will ever have to face, but in your heart you will know the answer. Many people don't agree with abortion, many people will try to sway your opinions, just know that its your choice, its your body, you're safe, and everything will be ok, I hope someone, somewhere reads this and hopefully my struggles will help them with whatever decision they decide to make.
After this happened, I worked as hard as I could, got my own place, went back to school and I am happy to say I have met someone else, and now have a beautiful daughter whose 6 months old. Had I not went through with my actions, I would not have her, or be where I am now. My sons father has since smartened up, he is a great dad now and I have forgiven him although it was hard.
Just remember everything happens for a reason. <3
Until we meet again my angel, I love you.
<3
quotesmurfs?posted 18th Jun '12
Quoting Autumn&Kaleb♥:" Lol thats ok I ended up having my daughter with someone that I met shortly after all this, were still ... [snip!] ... He and I don't ever talk about all the things that happened, we just retain a friendship because of having a child together. "
I understand
i also went through and abortion, i actually had two of them, both after my three year old was born, i wasn't in a very stable place in my life, so i like to hear other peoples stories and experiences. It's not an easy thing to go through, i remember after my first one i promised myself NEVER again would i have to do something like that, and one year later, i was back in the same situation, i couldn't believe myself and i hated myself for a long time after my second one, i like to think everything happens for a reason.
I have 2 kids & 1 angel baby & live in
New Yorkposted 20th Jun '12
Thank you for posting your story. It's comforting to know that I'm not the only one who made a difficult decision. I'm hoping to read other stories as a way to heal and forgive myself. I've only had two people to support me, that I've admitted this to. My boyfriend and my counselor. I confided in a couple of friends who went and spilled it to my b/f ex. She's been all high and mighty about it since they have two kids together. So, I'm glad I can find women like you to support me. I'm too scared to tell me family. Thank you.
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Marylandposted 20th Jun '12
erns818, that is a decision you and her need to come to together. But the choice is ultimately hers. Do you know how she feels about the baby? You shouldn't force her to get an abortion. But if you don't want to abort and both don't want to keep the baby, you can try adoption. I've never gone through the process and I don't know what it takes. But it comes down to you talking to her and don't force her to do something she doesn't want to do.
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Marylandposted 21st Jun '12
I strongly dislike abortion but you had good reason, my mom went through being homeless with my oldest sister and also had an abortion, she was like 20 and my sister was a few months old, she had her reasons, just as you have yours, I'm glad that your life turned in the right direction.... not gonna lie your story made me cry! Best of luck to your future!
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