so maybe I was wrong...

I keep thinking what if I am making the wrong choice? Like I think I'm ok now what about later when the pregnancy progresses. The more I think I just need to be fixed I feel lazy though and depressed... But I don't want a women demeaning me all the time. I feel my living situation is better but wonder what's best but I'm too down to work for what's depressed. If I could find a job and have a life maybe I'd get an abortion. I just feel like I don't get an opportunity away from my mom. I just don't see it with abortion but I realize it is probably better to get an abortion but I don't see another way away from my mom tbh...

If you've decided on abortion and that's best for you then get some counseling and do that if you still feel it's best. If you need to get away from your mother, then get a job and save up money and get your own place.

kind of hard with depression added to the lack of reffeals at one point I was applying to 8 jobs a day and got nothing

I don't know hun   I'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now.

it's ok it's not that bad I ws just admitting what probably many knew.