I have been afraid for so long to read anything in this topic, cause I have been so afraid of thinking about my abortions.
I had an abortion just a yr after I had my now 4 yr old daughter I couldn't grip the fact that I got pregnant again with my ex. We broke up in 07 then I found out I was pregnant and everyone hated him and I was so lost and had no one so I went through with the abortion and have never told anyone ever.
It tore me apart. A yr after that I was kinda still seeing him, more like friends. With benefits. And he was seeing other pol too. In 2010 I got pregnant again but with my best friend. I loved him so much and he used to tell me how much he loved me too. We were right for eachother in every way, except he was on a break with his babies mom. I ended up pregnant and wanted to keep the baby so much buy he didn't want anymore kids he had 2 already. But I also didn't know of it was his or my ex baby. It broken my heart but I had another abortion. And I lost my best friend we have not spoken to since things got weird.
As odd as it is I ended up having a baby 4 months ago with my ex. We have 2 daughters together and I have 10 yr old daughter. Even though we will never be together as a couple we love are girls. I keep thinking. Cause I always wanted a boy, that those 2 were my boys and I feel awful about it. Only one persons knows I had it done.