Quoting GABRiELS M0MMy:" I honestly can not do adoption i feel bad giving my child away that i carryed for 9 months , and about ... [snip!] ... one. yes my son was dignosed by a doc about add hes super super happy all the time witch seems like hes drinking soda all day ."
You have three options
Decide what will be better in the long run for your family. All three are hard choices and I wish you the best of luck.
Do you have someone you can talk this over with? Your SO, mom, sister, best friend, anyone? Maybe someone close to you can give some more helpful words.