PTSD

And not the battlefield kind. If you suffered from PTSD, how did it affect you? It's been 2 years since losing my son and I am just beginning to understand what PTSD is... unfortunately, it's impossible understand it unless you've experienced it. I've become anxious and make decisions in a much different manner. Sometimes I wish I could have the old me back, but I like the enlightened me better. I just wish the rest of the world could understand. But since they don't, I just take my wisdom as a blessing.

I had PTSD from when I was 15, I was molested almost raped by a guy with a 13 inch blade sticking out of his pocket. I became severely depressed, got an eating disorder, didn't sleep, became angry and hateful, didn't trust anyone, and I pretty much gave up on everything.

I did all the wrong things to get passed it, but it took a long while to finally come to terms with things. Afterwards everything was better.

I know it isn't the same, nor even comparable to losing a child but I was answering the PTSD, non military caused part.

Quoting Lebend. Lachen. Liebe™:" I had PTSD from when I was 15, I was molested almost raped by a guy with a 13 inch blade sticking out ... [snip!] ... I know it isn't the same, nor even comparable to losing a child but I was answering the PTSD, non military caused part."

Yeah... that's what I was getting at. I'm sorry you went through something so terrible...   But that's what I was getting at. I think reality just shifts, and you can't ever look at the world through the same eyes that other people do.

Quoting Is that still my name?:" Yeah... that's what I was getting at. I'm sorry you went through something so terrible...   But that's ... [snip!] ... I was getting at. I think reality just shifts, and you can't ever look at the world through the same eyes that other people do."

Nope. Then all the drugs they try and shove down your throat doesn't help any either.

Quoting Lebend. Lachen. Liebe™:" Nope. Then all the drugs they try and shove down your throat doesn't help any either."

exactly

Quoting Is that still my name?:" exactly"

find your 'thing' that keeps you happy
mines music, i just made a post about it. but if you have, or once you find that thing itll get loads easier

I was raped when I was in the Marine Corps. They diagnosed me with PTSD. It didn't actually start to affect me too badly until I my OB called and told me I had herpes. So, instead of forgetting about it, I had to stare it in the face to deal with it. A few months after, I got married to my first husband, and very shortly after was put on Lorazepan, and some bipolar meds to deal with it. I was cutting and all sorts of stuff. My command found out about it, and I lost my promotion. The first night after my ex got ack from Iraq, he wanted sex. Obviously. I tried to oblige him, but could not. He said something about how he wasn't the one who raped me, so I shouldn't punish him by not giving him sex. I also heard things like, it isn't my fault that some guy banged you and gave you herpes. Because having consexual sex is comparable to rape.

So, long story short, I still have episodes is DH grabs my wrist. And still have a short fuse when it comes to certain things. I am not on behavioral meds any longer, and no longer cut. I live with the scars, very rarely wear shorts, and never bikini bottoms. It has been almost 5 years, and DH says you can't really see them, but I know they are there.