I tested positive for pregnancy. I have a medical condition that makes pregnancy hard but I can sustain one. I don't want an abortion. I've seen how it's done it's just like killing any other baby in my opinion. I'm really stupid to get myself in this situation. It just happened a lot. I know at the school I'll be called a slut a whore for what I did. I know I'm a horrible person. But at the end of the day I just want to be a good mom since everything else is going to be lost I know. Well I work a job to support my mom and me. My mom's a recovering addict. My dad still does heroin... He and his gf actually chose adoption for this reason... I'm 16. I will be a junior next year. The worst part of this is before I knew (today) I was drinking like crazy. Me and the guy we'd drink a lot together I got into drugs but not deeply but still and we had a sexual relationship that lasted 6 months. He sells drugs and probably won't be able to be forced to pay child support. But he's my next door neighbor so he'll find out. Worst part to this of our relationship is I'm not his gf. I think honestly he likes me more. Just that she's popular attractive and everything every guy wants. But she's a good innocent girl he's the bad boy type I'm kind of at his level but I always felt like one of the guys besides that we smurfed. But I did everything with him. We lived like in the same place just about besides drinking and sex we just hung out a lot... I got the feeling I meant something as friends to him... I'm more a tomboy and not like her family really. We had a lot in common. She and I were best friends though. But of course when this is found out that won't be the case... So the relationship with him was really as neighbors who had sex frequently... I was stupid not to use protection. I've had sex before him and I never got pregnant I took it for granted really... But I know what I want is to parent. I have a job already just don't know monetarily how I could do it... I know that's what I want though... Advice???
I would say your first step would be to find a doctor and start getting prenatal care. Find out what you can expect with the baby's health since you were drinking heavily. If you are determined to parent this child, start preparing now for it. Thats great that you have a job already, hopefully you can start putting some money aside. I would at least look into adoption. If anything, you should educate yourself on all the options.
As far as your social situation, well, you will just have to deal with the fallout with your friend. That was probably coming anyway, since you were sleeping with her boyfriend. You weren't a good friend to her, and she'll probably return that favor by lashing out when she finds out.
Just start doing your best to be prepared and healthy for this baby.
I hate that you have to deal with all that being so young. You definitely need to get prenatal care first. Make sure to tell your job at some point. Save as much money as you can b/w now and when the baby is born for when you need to go on some maternity leave. Make sure that you have thought about all of your options. I understand that you want to parent, but remember that you're young and still have options. If you still want to parent after, then you try to get as much help as you can. You can do it by yourself. It will be hard, but it will pay off.
Prenatal care is the most importanat thing right now. Your friend and what she thinks (what anyone thinks) doesnt matter... You are not a horrible person, everyone makes choices and mistakes... The child support issue- just because hes a drug dealer or whatever doesnt mean they wont order child support... They will order it after a DNA test and if he doesnt pay he goes to jail..... Thats how it is in most states. Taking care of yourself and your baby is the most important thing... I was a single mom with my first baby, the father left 3days after I found out for sure. Its extremely hard but when your heart and head are telling you to be the best mommy you can be then you will find a way to make it happen... I was a single mom until my son was 20months old, his dad came back around and now we are getting married and have a new baby. Sometimes the rough situations, like yours, makes your life even better. You will have rough days but keep your head up, your baby is worth it! Good luck!