I've hit my breaking point

My father and i took LO to Chik fil a . He was fine until we got ready to leave. He threw a HUGE tantrum. he was screeching at the top of his lungs, screaming, crying, rolling all over the floor like he was crazy. i kept trying to pick him up to carry him out and i couldnt catch him. everyone was... laughing. i kinda laughed too so i wouldnt burst into tears like i am now. it took me 10 minutes of me getting kicked, hit, my hair pulled to get him in the car seat. he through the tantrum all the way home. i was beyond embarrassed. nobody ever wants their kid to be "that kid" , the one whose always bad, cannot sit still, throws tantrums at everything. nobody asks for this. i love him, but i do not like him. i dont like to be around him. yeah, i know, how awful and terrible of me to say. i think i need some counseling or something before i just go bat smurf crazy. i feel like no one else wants to be around him either and that really hurts. im just.......i dont even know

<blockquote><b>Quoting HotMom21ERF:</b>" My father and i took LO to Chik fil a . He was fine until we got ready to leave. He threw a HUGE tantrum. ... [snip!] ... go bat smurf crazy. i feel like no one else wants to be around him either and that really hurts. im just.......i dont even know"</blockquote>




I feel your pain. I have an 18 month old dd and she is in the terrible twos early. The other night she threw a fit while we were out eating dinner. So I had to take her to the car while Dh and my oldest dd sat and ate their dinner.

from what ive seen everyone gets fed up and dont like their kids at some point, its okay. how old is he? it might just be a lhase and he will grow out of it.

Quoting ❥peαch:" from what ive seen everyone gets fed up and dont like their kids at some point, its okay. how old is he? it might just be a lhase and he will grow out of it."

hes two and has some level of SPD

I think any mother can relate, i feel you. It'll pass. Everyone has "that kid" at some point. Just relax mama.

My son is like that as well, minus the throw on the floor in public. I've learned to just ignore him. My son will be 4 in August.

Quoting Mama k ♥:" I think any mother can relate, i feel you. It'll pass. Everyone has "that kid" at some point. Just relax mama."

  This. I really disliked my kid at some point, but things got a lot better once he turned three, I was able to actually talk to him and make him understand my point of view and he listened. Things get better, mamma, they truly do.

it would be different if this was a rare thing, but its not . it happens a lot. i just...dont know what to do. he is in developmental and occupational therapy, but he is sooo good for the therapists, they dont get to see his true colors

just having him, makes me not want to have another baby, ever. and SO and i planned on TTC next year.

<blockquote><b>Quoting HotMom21ERF:</b>" it would be different if this was a rare thing, but its not . it happens a lot. i just...dont know what ... [snip!] ... he is in developmental and occupational therapy, but he is sooo good for the therapists, they dont get to see his true colors"</blockquote>



is this a recent thing, or since birth? he still may grow out of it

How do you discipline him? Choose a method of discipline and stick to it, be consistent. I found that sticker charts, time outs and removing privileges worked wonders for my son, so that's why I did, and it eventually worked, once he realized I was serious. Of course there were days when I yelled, cried and lost my temper, but those days have become rare. Hang in there!

My LO is a good boy, but he had a hugggeee tantrum at a wedding party and we left early. Mortifying. Horrible feeling, but that's parenting for you!

I can totally relate. Don't feel bad. Take a deep breath.

Is he in any type of therapy? OT? That has really helped DD with her SID.

Quoting Meg ♥:" I can totally relate. Don't feel bad. Take a deep breath. Is he in any type of therapy? OT? That has really helped DD with her SID. "

he has OT. i called both the therapists bawling my eyes out. they of course cannot make a diagnosis, but they are leaning toward autism. i am making an appt with the pedi tomorrow morning. it just so happens that his DT lives right down the block from LO's pedi, she went down there and talked to him, and he said to get in asap. they will probably send us to Riley Hospital for further testing..... i just feel so.....numb. why my kid? why cant my child be normal? was it because i got him vaccinated? was it because i took zoloft during my pregnancy? was it because he eats processed foods? what did i do to do this to my child?

Quoting HotMom21ERF:" he has OT. i called both the therapists bawling my eyes out. they of course cannot make a diagnosis, ... [snip!] ... was it because i took zoloft during my pregnancy? was it because he eats processed foods? what did i do to do this to my child?"

:hugs:

I'm in the same boat. DD has severe anxiety with SID. She has meltdowns a lot... and they are sometimes extreme.

I ask the same questions. She graduated preschool today but let me tell you the struggle it was to get her through this year. :sigh: I'm nervous/scared/driving myself crazy thinking about kindergarten. Her teachers are amazing... they have helped out so much. BUT I have the same thoughts when she has one of her episodes.

Don't feel like a bad mom. Your child is the same person you love.... he just processes things differently (like mine) than most kids. I'm sorry you had a rough evening. Just yesterday I told DH that I was ready to give up. I felt like I wanted to run away..... and never come back. Sometimes it is SO hard. I understand.

If you ever need to vent, please please feel free to PM me.