Quoting HotMom21ERF:" he has OT. i called both the therapists bawling my eyes out. they of course cannot make a diagnosis, ... [snip!] ... was it because i took zoloft during my pregnancy? was it because he eats processed foods? what did i do to do this to my child?"
I'm in the same boat. DD has severe anxiety with SID. She has meltdowns a lot... and they are sometimes extreme.
I ask the same questions. She graduated preschool today but let me tell you the struggle it was to get her through this year. :sigh: I'm nervous/scared/driving myself crazy thinking about kindergarten. Her teachers are amazing... they have helped out so much. BUT I have the same thoughts when she has one of her episodes.
Don't feel like a bad mom. Your child is the same person you love.... he just processes things differently (like mine) than most kids. I'm sorry you had a rough evening. Just yesterday I told DH that I was ready to give up. I felt like I wanted to run away..... and never come back. Sometimes it is SO hard. I understand.
If you ever need to vent, please please feel free to PM me.