re: I've hit my breaking point

<blockquote><b>Quoting HotMom21ERF:</b>" he has OT. i called both the therapists bawling my eyes out. they of course cannot make a diagnosis, ... [snip!] ... was it because i took zoloft during my pregnancy? was it because he eats processed foods? what did i do to do this to my child?"</blockquote>


There is a SPD thread, started by *J* I can't link from my iPad, but there are other mothers going through this very same thing, at one degree or another. I can relate to some degree.

Quoting Meg ♥:" :hugs: I'm in the same boat. DD has severe anxiety with SID. She has meltdowns a lot... and they are ... [snip!] ... and never come back. Sometimes it is SO hard. I understand. If you ever need to vent, please please feel free to PM me. "

i feel terrible, but i feel like i want to run away and start over. i love my child , i really do, i know he didnt ask for this. you never think it will be your own child that has a diagnosis or a problem. thanks mama and i will pm you for sure. i just want to get him to the pedi and get this process, wherever it may lead, started.

Quoting Angie Mother of Boys:" <blockquote><b>Quoting HotMom21ERF:</b>" he has OT. i called both the therapists bawling ... [snip!] ... my iPad, but there are other mothers going through this very same thing, at one degree or another. I can relate to some degree."

im in that thread, im just not thinking straight and put it here

Quoting Angie Mother of Boys:" <blockquote><b>Quoting HotMom21ERF:</b>" he has OT. i called both the therapists bawling ... [snip!] ... my iPad, but there are other mothers going through this very same thing, at one degree or another. I can relate to some degree."

http://forum.baby-gaga.com/about2187279.html

 

Hyperlexia was also brought up as a possible diagnosis for LO. i guess its just a waiting game.

Quoting HotMom21ERF:" im in that thread, im just not thinking straight and put it here"

I thought I saw you in there. I was just suggesting it, so you wouldn't have to say repeatedly that it's not just a stage, or terrible two's or whatever. I hate having to repeat, repeat, repeat.
Anyway I'm sorry you are having a rough time. I feel the need to run away or have problems IMO coping, even though everyone from the outside looking in, says I am doing fantastic. I feel almost every day, that I'm going crazy and don't know how I am handling MY LIFE. But, we as SN mothers, know what each other are going through, as we live it everyday. I am thankful for other mothers like you and others I have met through BG that I can relate to, and have a level of understanding.
I want to give you a bit of encouragement, in the fact that because you have one SN child and although it is stressful- having another child does not guarantee there will or will not be developmental problems. Before you say no way to expanding your family, it might be beneficial to look into genetic counseling. Because right now- you are getting your LO the help that they need. The tools to cope for the future. And although it SUCKS at this point in time- there is no telling how functional LO is in one year, two, years or five years.

Quoting Angie Mother of Boys:" I thought I saw you in there. I was just suggesting it, so you wouldn't have to say repeatedly that it's ... [snip!] ... And although it SUCKS at this point in time- there is no telling how functional LO is in one year, two, years or five years. "

especially at times like these, i am SO thankful i have my BG mamas (especially SN mamas) i feel like you all are the only ones who know what my LO , and i are going through. I'm still having a hard time coping, even though LO hasnt been formally diagnosed. but.. i know. i know in my heart that he is autistic. he has an appt today with his pedi. we need to see her first to get a referral to see specialists. thankfully, she has a SN daughter of her own , and she is very very kind, patient, and understanding. she was actually my doctor when i was little. i just hope i dont break down at the dr's office, but i probably will.

Quoting HotMom21ERF:" especially at times like these, i am SO thankful i have my BG mamas (especially SN mamas) i feel like ... [snip!] ... she was actually my doctor when i was little. i just hope i dont break down at the dr's office, but i probably will."

If you break down, it's okay. She will understand. I try so hard to keep myself pulled together and I'm successful- up until one of his therapists has to go over new testing results to see how much progress either of them has made or hasn't. It is tough talking about our children and where they are at. I would suggest taking notes, so you don't forget anything. And even a pack of tissues so you can have them handy. I hate getting the box of kleenex passed to me when we are trying to talk.

Quoting Angie Mother of Boys:" If you break down, it's okay. She will understand. I try so hard to keep myself pulled together and I'm ... [snip!] ... even a pack of tissues so you can have them handy. I hate getting the box of kleenex passed to me when we are trying to talk. "

thank you for the advice

<blockquote><b>Quoting HotMom21ERF:</b>" thank you for the advice"</blockquote>

If you need anything feel free to PM.

Im sorry MaMa. My best wishes go out to you. Just let him get a lil older.

Quoting Angie Mother of Boys:" <blockquote><b>Quoting HotMom21ERF:</b>" thank you for the advice"</blockquote> If you need anything feel free to PM."

the appt went AMAZING! i love love love my son's pedi. she is sooooo patient, kind, understanding. when i began to cry, she told me that she has a 26 year old daughter on the spectrum, she knows what im going through, and she even began to tear up. i just love her. she is referring us to a developmental pediatrics facility. one is private, its going to cost a lot of money, but we can get in much sooner. she said they will do blood testing, an MRI, genetic testing....the whole thing. at Riley hospital, they do accept insurance but it could be 6 months before we get in there.... SO and i will have to discuss this, but , im just SO happy that LO's pedi is so understanding