kinda sad

im kinda sad today and i have no idea why i just want to cry and when my son crys i dont feel like getting up i dont want to sound like a bad mother or anything because i do get up and i do love him to bits and peices but today i guess just isnt my day me and my boyfriend fight like cats and dogs and it makes me sad and im really nervious about telling my family im pregnant again we told my boyfriend sister last night and she took me aside and told me basicly i was a dumb ass and when he leaves me im gunna be left alone with 2 kids and that i wont be able to handle it my hair is falling out badly everytime i touch it another hand full falls out and the doctor said it was because of stress but i dont know how to help myself not stress people always say oh just go take a bath and relax or lay in bed but theres always something to do ..
I have had so many bad dreams about miscarages (sp?) its so scary ..

Idk sorry this was so long and kinda pointless but i had to get it out ...

Maybe you just need to talk to someone? ... or tell your family

You should definitley find someone who won't judge you and is relatively uninvolved with you personally to talk to- a family friend, counselor, whatever. Stress can and will cause m/c and that won't make you any happier. If you truly want another baby and believe you can do it, you need someone to support you through it so you don't feel like shit about it, your sister should be more supportive but if she'd not don't listen to her bullshit. If you don't feel you can do this don't feel like you have to, remember there are other options. GL Hun !

myabe call your mom up and tell ger your concerns? you can try to work it out with him but if you feel like you dont want to DONT STAY, broken homes arnt fun for kids to live in and its less confusing if thats all they know,instead of spliting up when they are older. Family is the most important thing and you deserve so much better then him.

yea i need someone to talk to but i honeslt have no one i dont have a best friend anymore my boyfriend i can talk to him but hell never understand and if i tell my family that im upset or hurting or pregnant they will filp on me and tell me that they said i shouldt have the first one why the hell am i hvaeing a second and i think i can do it i dont really belive in getting an abortion to the girls who did or who are planning on it more power to them but its just something i couldnt do a child is a gift larger than life and to give my child away i coulnd do eather and it makes me so happy to be haveing another baby i can share with the world . i think im just drined i never get a min to myself im always doing something for someone .. i just dont know what to do anymore i feel like im just going to break down and no one will ever know why i put a smile on when im around people but when im home i just dont feel right i feel like i cant relate to my boyfriend i just cant stand him anymore and when hes not home i miss him so much the only person who truely makes me happy is my son i wishi had friends but my bestfriend broke up with her boyfriend and now she goes clubbing alot with this other girl who has 2 kids but she just drops her kids to go out and i dont want to be a mother like that shes just a fuckhead ! i cant stand that girl she lives at home with her mom and sleeps on the couch with 2 kids has no job no nothing didnt finish school but can go out and party when ever she want oh man i dont know what to do anymore

Quoting Sara12345:“ myabe call your mom up and tell ger your concerns? you can try to work it out with him but if you feel ... [snip!] ... know,instead of spliting up when they are older. Family is the most important thing and you deserve so much better then him.”

we fight alot but its mostly my fault he does try to take care of me but and help me but i have a major attitude problem now i dont know why ive just bein so tired and i cant talk to my mom when i told her i was preggo she screamed at me and called me all types of names from a a bitch to a tramp .. anything that came to her mind she was calling me i dont talk to her about anything she kicked me out when i was 15 for fighting in school she took her devorce out on me and things havent been the same since ...

I had the same thing when i got pregnant(it wasnt as bad though cause i moved from ottawa to here so i made new friends while being pregnant but my friends in ottawa including my best friend i dont talk to anymore because they are where i used to be(partying,clubbing everyday) it makes me feel lonely to know i dont have those friends anymore but we just have nothing in common.

You could use alot of help dealing with your attitude from a professional and it would benifit your relationship SO MUCH. I had ppd and my relationship was going down the tube everyday. I talked to someone got meds and my life is great now. Your attidude could be something you cant control and you'll want to nip that now so your relationship has a chance.

How is your relationship with either of your boyfriends parents? Could your MIL offer you support your mom cant? If you trust her consider talking to her-she will not look down on you because of it.

Quoting Sara12345:“ I had the same thing when i got pregnant(it wasnt as bad though cause i moved from ottawa to here so ... [snip!] ... your MIL offer you support your mom cant? If you trust her consider talking to her-she will not look down on you because of it.”

yea well his mother is the type of person you will neber hear a word of encoragement from and his father is just a big story telling and hes perfect and everone else is horrible and does everything wrong i used to go to counceling in school because my father used to beat me andmolestme hes was addited to many things and my mother was addicted to gambeling (sp) no one in my family knew i got beat or anything else so at 15 is when my mom kicked me out and i started to live with my aunt she got me help and now im better i dont really care anymore i havent spoken to or seen my father in 3 yrs its just some days are worse than others and i dont want to be this way when baby number 2 comes alone

Quoting and baby makes 3:“ yea well his mother is the type of person you will neber hear a word of encoragement from and his father ... [snip!] ... seen my father in 3 yrs its just some days are worse than others and i dont want to be this way when baby number 2 comes alone”

You have to go to a different counsellor not in your school because they deal with so many people you cant always get the right treatment,but someone from the city-there are numbers you can call and even the hospitals can refer you too really great professionals. I understand your past situations and you could really have formed depression and trauma from that(I know your thinking DUUUHH lol,but things like that dont go away on there own. I hope things work out okay for u. You need to find a family member or friend or someone you trust to lean on..did you think about a moms group?

Quoting Sara12345:“ You have to go to a different counsellor not in your school because they deal with so many people you ... [snip!] ... out okay for u. You need to find a family member or friend or someone you trust to lean on..did you think about a moms group?”

no i have no idea what moms group is im going to talk to my boss and see who he recomends b/c he know alot of people somedays im so happy and then other i just want tolay in my bed and stay there alll day and night

Quoting and baby makes 3:“ no i have no idea what moms group is im going to talk to my boss and see who he recomends b/c he know ... [snip!] ... b/c he know alot of people somedays im so happy and then other i just want tolay in my bed and stay there alll day and night”

Thats a great idea! Moms groups are just meetings where a bunch of moms get together with there children and do fun stuff-its free and the best way to meet people in your situation. You really sound like you have depression though-when i had it thats EXACTLY how i felt. I am on a drug called wellbutrin and it is a low dose safe for pregnancy and breastfeeding. It doesnt cause you to gain weight,break out or make you feel out of it.etc..its just a mood stabilizer and its helped me a great deal. There are other things you could do but you have to see your doctor-its worth it. I thought i could get through it on my own and couldnt..

yea i feel like it wioll go away on its own lol even thou i know i have problems it hit me real hard now that i dot have anyone to talk to and im very stuborn i could just call my ex bestfriend and tell her everything but she diched me to manytimes to hang out with a lowlife i cant blame her i mean shes only 20 with no kids shit if i had no kids id be partying to but i do and i love it being a mommy ahh its the best !!

Quoting and baby makes 3:“ yea i feel like it wioll go away on its own lol even thou i know i have problems it hit me real hard ... [snip!] ... mean shes only 20 with no kids shit if i had no kids id be partying to but i do and i love it being a mommy ahh its the best !!”

It wont go away, no matter how strong of a person you are. I was forced to go to the doctors...you could talk to your best friend maybe she can just be the ears to listen to you vent.

Im sry =[ dont worry..my fiance listens but never understands either! PM me if u need someone!

nahh i wont talk to her lol not unless she at least tries she hasnt called me in over a week and i called her every singel day 2 weeks agoa dn last week i just gave up