Quoting Cute_aza_Button WAL:" Ive always been prochoice. i think that the only thing that will stop if we make abortions against the ... [snip!] ... without some BS propaganda running through my head. Im goig to have a breakdown by the time everything is said and done "
I'm so sorry. To be honest, I felt the same way. Except I never wanted to get my abortion--I was pressured into it by my DH (boyfriend at the time). And believe me, the same thoughts were running through my head. Especially how the baby had a heartbeat at 6 weeks. I did everything I could to try and convince him to let me keep the baby, but his ultimatum (him or the baby) plus me being 18, scared and alone, no support from anyone, going to school and working a dead end job at Walmart, made me follow through with it.
And honestly I never regretted anything more. I had my abortion almost two years ago, and every day my heart aches with the loss. But now that I'm pregnant again, the pain has been a lot easier to deal with. I feel like it was a just sacrifice, because if I hadn't given up that baby, I probably never would have kept this one, and my life would be very different from what it is today.
I guess my point is, yeah it's really painful to go through.... And most women don't have an abortion without serious thought and consideration for the life they are taking. Just remember that this is something you're not ready for, and you need to provide the very best for the child you already have. There's nothing you can do now that you are pregnant. You will either have the baby, or get rid of it. Either way it is there, and now you need to decide what you are doing.
If you follow through with the abortion, just remember that it was what you thought was best for your family and don't hold on to the "oh, the baby had a heartbeat when I killed it," "oh, the baby had little fingers and toes," "oh, the baby was this far along when I took it's life."Don't let those thoughts haunt you. I did, for so so long, and it is so hard and painful to deal with. Just be strong. You are making an incredibly hard decision; don't let it be something you regret. I feel that if you think an abortion is best for your situation, you should be able to go through with it knowing you put the child you have now first, and that is the best you can do.
I hope that if you do have the abortion, you'll be able to look back on it like I do now, which is something that was for the best.