Like I said I am here to talk. I had an abortion in May 2011. I didn't want it, but I felt pressured into it by my husband. He just wanted me to have it so he could move on to someone else and treat me like absolute smurf. After I got it I cried and cried because we had both actively tried for that baby. I felt like I should've told him no because I wanted the baby. I ever had a last minute chance at the clinic to say no, but I didn't because he made me feel it was the right things to do. I seriously wanted to die. Now looking at all that he has put me through in the last year fighting for our son I am glad I went through with the abortion. I couldn't imagine putting two kids through all this court BS and drama. I know right now you feel guilty and think you made the wrong decision maybe one day you will see it was right. I really hope you heal from all of this.