re: *OFFICIAL* Fertility Treatment Thread (Clomid, IVF, IUI)

Im hoping someone can answer my question. Today would be day three of femera. Around 5 this morning my heart rate increased and I couldn't calm down I felt like I just went running. Im thinking it was a panic attack that lasted awhile. As soon as I did t feel right I freaked . All I could think about is me dying and the kids being left with no parents. The only other panic attack happened out of nowhere also and same thing I freaked out about the kids. I'm not sure if I should take my femera dose or not. Im going to ask the pharmacist but I haven't had much luck with them. I find I know more about my meds.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs.O♥:</b>" 16.5 follicle is now measuring 21!!! How are you ladies doing?"</blockquote>

Yay!! IUI should be within the next few days I would think?! Excited for you!

Having one of those days. DH's cousin coincidently did IVF the same time as us. She got her BFP beta today. Her & the rest of DH's family are obviously on Cloud 9 and celebrating while I snuck into the bathroom and had a ridiculous meltdown. I'm genuinely happy for her, but the news stung and set me back into "life isn't fair" mode. I wish I was a normal person who could feel happy for people. Instead I feel like a jealous, bitter, d-bag. I really need to get a grip!

<blockquote><b>Quoting seattlemama3 *NMD*:</b>" Im hoping someone can answer my question. Today would be day three of femera. Around 5 this morning my ... [snip!] ... my femera dose or not. Im going to ask the pharmacist but I haven't had much luck with them. I find I know more about my meds. "</blockquote>

I had the same thing happen last month on the femara (day 4 of dosing). I didn't go in to full panic attack mode, but my heart was racing and I felt like I was going to jump out of my skin. After speaking with a friend of mine who took femara for a few months, it seems like this is a pretty common side-effect. Due to this fact, I'm taking my dose at night this month to see if it helps. I didn't have any issues today after last night's dose. I will tell you, from first-hand knowledge, if you report this side-effect they will likely make you stop taking it. So, basically, I would tell you to make that call based on how severe it was... Also, I don't know if you drink caffeinated beverages, but if so, I would cut them out and see if that helps.

<blockquote><b>Quoting [Mrs. C]:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs.O♥:</b>" 16.5 follicle is now measuring 21!!! How ... [snip!] ... was a normal person who could feel happy for people. Instead I feel like a jealous, bitter, d-bag. I really need to get a grip!"</blockquote>




I'm sooo sorry! I know how badly it hurts sweetie! And it's sooo hard not to be jealous. Last August I had to host my best-friend's baby shower two weeks after my miscarriage, and if that weren't bad enough her sis-in-law had found out she was pregnant the week before so she was all excited and going on and on about it at the shower. And, even though I was genuinely so happy for my BFF (she had had 3 previous mc herself) it still hurt so much knowing I wouldn't be getting to have a shower a few months from then like I should have been. You're human. You have every right to be hurt, and angry, and envious, but...hopefully very, very soon you'll be the one getting to share the great news! Just don't be too hard on yourself that you find it difficult to be happy for her. You'll see how much things change when you finally get to have a baby too!  

<blockquote><b>Quoting brodyzmom:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting [Mrs. C]:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs.O♥:</b>" ... [snip!] ... that you find it difficult to be happy for her. You'll see how much things change when you finally get to have a baby too!  "</blockquote>

That meant a lot, thank you so much. I feel like like an ass lol but some days I wish it wasn't so hard to look at the bright side of things. So thankful that I've met you & all of the other strong ladies here. I truly believe our struggles will make us have a stronger appreciation for our little miracles when they finally arrive. Hugs!

Quoting [Mrs. C]:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs.O♥:</b>" 16.5 follicle is now measuring 21!!! How ... [snip!] ... was a normal person who could feel happy for people. Instead I feel like a jealous, bitter, d-bag. I really need to get a grip!"

Ugh! Im sorry girl!!! that's so frustrating!   I would feel the same. My fingers are crossed for you.

So yes! IUI will be either monday or tuesday!!! I texted my boss to let her know so she can find someone to watch the little one for a couple hours. She texts me back and says "Tuesday is no problem but I can't on monday".... Ummm, really?

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs.O♥:</b>" So yes! IUI will be either monday or tuesday!!! I texted my boss to let her know so she can find someone ... [snip!] ... the little one for a couple hours. She texts me back and says "Tuesday is no problem but I can't on monday".... Ummm, really?"</blockquote>




Ugh. This pisses me off!!! People who have never been through all this smurf have no freaking clue! "So, Monday is bad for you? Ok body, just hang tight for 24 more hours, I have a scheduling conflict so if you could not O, that'd be great..." Punch that lady for me!

<blockquote><b>Quoting brodyzmom:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs.O♥:</b>" So yes! IUI will be either monday or tuesday!!! ... [snip!] ... hang tight for 24 more hours, I have a scheduling conflict so if you could not O, that'd be great..." Punch that lady for me!"</blockquote>




Exactly!!!!! Thank you!!! I told her that, I was like its not up to me it's up to my body! I'm not gonna miss my iui and reschedule my future because it conflicts with her schedule.

Quoting [Mrs. C]:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mrs.O♥:</b>" 16.5 follicle is now measuring 21!!! How ... [snip!] ... was a normal person who could feel happy for people. Instead I feel like a jealous, bitter, d-bag. I really need to get a grip!"

*hugs* i had my melt down thursday, its normal when we've been trying so hard.

i feel bad for the melt down had Thursday when friend got her bfp, seems shes miscarried today and found out her hubby cheated on her with a friend while she was asleep in other room and that one might be pregnant now.

im out for this cycle now. started spotting Friday night couple times, then nothing till streak Saturday night and now its picked up some and when showered, passed some small clots, just waiting for fuller flow to actually call it cd1.

as far as what we're going to do, no idea yet. gonna try to make an appt Monday when office opens (even though want to switch obgyns) and see what going to do now.

Here we go, 30-40 minute drive for a 5 minute blood draw lol... and then probably back tomorrow AM for IUI!  

Quoting Mrs.O♥:" Here we go, 30-40 minute drive for a 5 minute blood draw lol... and then probably back tomorrow AM for IUI!  "

I hear you on that, I make a 2 hour drive for the same, Good luck!

<blockquote><b>Quoting Dr.Clandestine:</b>" I hear you on that, I make a 2 hour drive for the same, Good luck!"</blockquote>



Yikes! Yeah it's a pain in the butt but worth it! Thank you!

I don't have time to catch up right now but I will later. I'm still angry and this happened yesterday. So like I said earlier I had heart palpatations early yesterday morning. So bad I was convinced I needed to go to the hospital. I never ever go to the doctor unless I really think I need to. So I'm not one of those people that just runs inat any little teinge. Anyway it subsided probably 2 hrs later. I talked to a pharmacist and she agreed she thought it was probably an anxiety attack but she suggest I call the on call doc just to make sure. So I did. She was the dumbest doctor I have ever talked to. I told what had happened and she said well it stopped right? Then your probably fine. If it bothers you and it happens again don't take it and talk to your doc on Monday. I told her I wasn't worried about an anxiety attack and that I knew it wasn't going to kill me. I was just worried about my heart. She came back to the anxiety again and completely ignored my question. And said I'm sure your fine if your fine now. She just acted like I was some hypochondriac and brushed me off. Maybe I shouldn't be as upset as I am but I don't think drug side effects are something to just brush off and say If your fine now I'm sure you will be fine. Anyway I am fine I was just furious at the way she handled it. I think the problem also was she doesn't know much about the med...... Anyway hope you all have a great Sunday I'll hop on later and catch up.